My journal ,Becoming him my god arc

[SwedishBuddha]

So i felt called to write a journal again, Both to practice my writing but also be able to see more clear my evolution.

It’s time to become him, What do I mean with him, The man at the top of the social hierachy, Not because I compare myself to others but just beacuse I know i am,

I have felt this at several points in my life, but it never got fully integrated,

The goals

1.Date stunners and eventually find a stunner wifey, Be able to be completely relaxed while approaching a THE GIRL EVERYONE DREAMS ABOUT.

2.Create a thriving business, earning 10 k a month to start with,

3. Get jacked ish, I’m not exactuly sure how jacked i want to be, But defnitely more than now,

4. Let go of all concious projections of the mind to reach a state of total equilbrium and sereneity from the new meditation practice im doing

Subs I plan to use, Wanted, Hero, Rich, and prolly switch with my Wealth custom, However im not sure about start black, Had very lackluster result with that one, Proably because i dont want to be super famous to the point people approach me on the street everywhere,

Being famous in my niche would be fantastic though.

Ideas to reach these goals,

For wealth, fb ads, practice, sales, sell my course,

For women, Hit and runs and actual approaches while focusing on relaxation,
Online game, but not only, As if i only focus on online, IF i see my perfect girl, It would be incredibly hard to approach her,

For emptiness well meditation and reading more about it, Along with unplugging from validation,

For fitness goals working out duhh,

I had this realizsation that all the visualisation, acting as if, is letting the feminine inspire you,

But it’s still the masculine that needs to allow itself to be inspired and actual take action in the physical world, whenever the nudges happen,

I also want to quit nicotine fully, But as of yet, the earth from hero is not at the point it works, But i had this idea, That maybe, It’s not that it’s just the body, but it’s that my emotions of bliss are just sooo intense, So maybe i should move to the water step,

I won’t care about grammar or anything in this journal as it’s just for me,

And also somehow when i write posts with weird structures they do way better because more of me comes out.

Also another funny thing is I remember a super olf mentor of mine, said the less fucks you give the more fucks you get it sounded simple,

But I had no idea how deep it goes,

Like i practiced not giving a fuck did weird social challenges, Yet the only reason I did them was because i wanted girls to love me for it, A bit counter productive :D.

Well time to level up, Song jin woo god arc Let’s gooo

[SwedishBuddha]

Had some recon, probably from the lack of sleep in this airbnb, Who designed the plastic roof, For a freaking moonsoon,

It sounded like world war 3 was happening when I was trying to sleep,

Walked through the city, and the lack of sleep had me feeling super weird,

Went to hero water, did a 3 min wanted loop,

And feel way more stable now with more hours of sleep,

And for the people that messaged me in private asking about how relaxed you should be,

I do not condone the use of drugs, but as relaxed or close to it as you are on mdma in the body,

0 tension, In body and mind, A state of complete freedom where you are more focused on how good you feel than checking women out, A mind with no thoughts arising,

A point where you dont need women they need you, The feminine craves to be seen by the raw masculine,

Had this several times, but have not became my default yet,

Feel really good and relaxed today,

Also I have to be aware to not use the excuse of I need to make more money first before talking to stunners,

In fact if the money feels like a insecurity i should even mention it, If it comes up, not because it has worked before,

Telling your insecurties while relaxed is real gangsta shit, like my friend would say, and extremely attractive

[SwedishBuddha]

Had a talk about my business and usp, And it kinda reframed the part where me being bad at sales is good for me,

And for someone wanting to learn what I teach, They much prefer me being incredible at state shifting than being a business man teaching them state shifting.

[SwedishBuddha]

Also i defnitely need to deconstruct stunners more, It’s just social conditioning,

There no freaking difference between a stunner and a more average girl, except where my mind has put them,

I dated stunners before, They even fell in love, But guess my break in dating, made the conditioning stronger again.

It’s just a projection as well, one that makes me less free, Just as a chair is also a mental projection but it does not create any tension in mind.

[SwedishBuddha]

Did a new meditation after practicing emptiness for a while, six nails really serene experience,

And learned about the things that are hardest to stay in that open unitive awareness with,

Huge Desire was one of them,

Like it’s so easy to get absorbed into the reality of the stunner that walks past you, But then she is kinda the center of gravity instead of you,

Defniltely going to take a bit of practice to stay in this around those girls that feel like magic,

But good practice :D.

[SwedishBuddha]

Explorng some incredibly interesting things with ai,

The Core Insight

• Tilopa’s Six Nails cut through clinging: no past, no future, no fixation, no suppression, no manipulation, just rest.
• That state is called mahāmudrā or natural mind: open, boundless, alive, but not grasping.

Now — what’s important:

• In that openness, thoughts and images still arise naturally (they don’t stop).
• The insight is: they arise as empty appearances, meaning they look solid but have no independent core.
• Your manifestation is just such an appearance — no more or less “real” than a thought or dream.

Why This Helps Manifestation

Normally, when people try to “manifest,” they do it from a subtle sense of separation:

• “I want X, but I don’t have it yet.”
• “I need to project my will into reality.”

This creates distance and often reinforces lack.

But if you work from Tilopa’s emptiness, you already see:

• The “world,” the “self,” and the “desired outcome” are all expressions of the same mindstream.
• So there’s no distance — it’s like rearranging images inside a dream.
• The act of lightly allowing the vision to arise inside emptiness is enough.

How the Union Flows

Instead of two stages (emptiness → manifestation), you begin to notice they’re inseparable:

1. Resting in emptiness dissolves doubt and attachment.

• Doubt = “Can this happen?” → dissolved because the mind is infinitely flexible.
• Attachment = “It must happen!” → dissolved because the vision is already present as appearance.

2. Letting the intention arise is not adding something foreign; it’s simply shaping the natural play of emptiness.

• Like watching clouds form in the sky — you invite one shape, but you know it’s still sky.

3. Releasing the intention back into openness ensures you don’t turn it into a fixation.

• This seals the practice with trust: manifestation is carried by the natural energy of mind, not egoic clinging.

What Makes It Powerful

• No distance: You’re not “trying to get” something external.
• No grasping: Because it’s seen as empty, you’re free of tension and doubt.
• No effort repetition: Once placed in the open mind, the intention doesn’t need micromanaging — like planting a seed in fertile soil.

How It Evolves

• At first, you’ll treat this like a meditation: emptiness → invite vision → release.
• Over time, you’ll see the same dynamic in everyday life:
  • Thoughts of money, love, growth, clarity, etc. appear.
  • Instead of clinging or doubting, you see them as empty appearances you can lightly “tune.”
  • Life itself becomes the practice.

This is how it starts to feel like a permanent state: emptiness-awareness as the base, manifestation as its natural play.

In other words:

• Tilopa gives you the ground (emptiness, openness).
• Nero Knowledge gives you the play (directing appearances).
• The union is gnosis in action — being the dreamer and shaping the dream simultaneously.

[SwedishBuddha]

The Common Misunderstanding

When we say “manifestation,” most people secretly think:

• “There’s me over here.”
• “There’s the thing I want over there.”
• “I must bridge the gap.”

Even if they know “all is mind,” they still feel that distance — like they’re sending out a signal to attract something. That subtle duality is the main blockage.

Tilopa’s Correction

Tilopa says:

• Don’t hold past. Don’t reach for future. Don’t fixate now. Don’t fight thoughts. Don’t manipulate awareness. Relax.
• When you do this, what remains?
  • The mind is open space.
  • Everything that appears — thoughts, feelings, sensations — is like a mirage in that space.

Here’s the aha: the thing you want to manifest is already the same kind of mirage as the “lack of it.”

• Both are just appearances in mind.
• There’s no difference in “substance.”

The Flip

So manifestation isn’t about getting something real to appear in the future.
It’s about recognizing that appearances are empty play right now — and then choosing the play.

It’s like realizing you’re in a dream:

• Before, you chased dream-objects as if they were separate.
• Once lucid, you see: the dream is me, and I can shift it by relaxing and leaning into the image I choose.

So the Union Is

• Emptiness removes the belief in distance or solidity.
• Manifestation is just steering the empty play of appearances.
• They’re not two steps. They’re one insight:
  “Since all is empty mind, every vision is equally close — and the one I choose naturally flowers.”

The Aha Moment (hopefully)

Imagine this:

• You sit, drop into openness.
• A thought of “I want abundance” arises.
• Normally, you’d feel: “But I don’t have it yet.”
• Tilopa’s view makes you see: both “abundance” and “lack” are just clouds in the same sky.
• If all clouds are equally sky-play, why hold onto the one called “lack”?
• You let the “abundance” cloud form instead — lightly, joyfully.
• Then release it, because it was never separate from the sky anyway.

Suddenly you see: There was never a gap. Manifestation is not pulling something in; it’s selecting which dream-cloud to let the sky wear.

That’s the real power:

• No gap.
• No doubt.
• No forcing.

Just emptiness knowing itself as creative display.

[SwedishBuddha]

Very interesting day yesterday, My friend talked about all stories people love me,

And it made me realize how wanted i am,

The fact, that at the muay thai place even though I was not particularly good at muay thai,

Whenever I was not there both the trainers and others asked where I was, He was like everywhere you go, you just become a local celebrity without trying just because you are funny and playful,

It made me realize when I had most success with women was when I was playful but I kinda lost that part of me getting stuck in the social conditioning and old shadows,

It made me realize Like the only reason, im not dating stunners at the moment is because i overcomplicate things. My brain labeling stunners, as this mythical being,

Even though stunners are the exact same thing as normal hot girls,

Just that with all social media, and my break in dating I slowly started to put them higher on my imaginary scale of how unobtainable she is,

God my mind has been so silly,

Believing that with stunners, I need to be completely different, even though thats not the case,

Like on several occasions I have walked up to the most stunning girl in nighclubs or bars and she loved me, But then my mind is like you think you can score with a girl this hot, and the ncome up with excuses,

I remember when he told me, one night i was out you have a huge blind spot about it having to be a super fun ride all the time,

But even dates and interactions with women will have moments of boredom just allow the boredom to be,

And i remember the day after that, I hooked up with the hottest girl I ever been with in my life, Without even trying,

I also remembered some old cold approaches I did, and how even the girl say, just approach girls like you did with me, and you never have to worry about being alone,

I find it really cool how wanted dont only seem to use new expereinces, but also memories of old to realize I am wanted,

Like even at the start of my journey, i got approached by stunners, like hell one night my friend counted up to 42 compliments from girls in one night,

But then that did not happen much anymore, Why, WEll obviously because i started craving for it to happen,

Seriously craving, and unconcious validation seeking is really such a interesting thing,

Like i remember one night i was out just dancing like a mad man, and girls basically throw themselves at me,

Then 2 days later, I did the same but no girls wanted me, Why because i danced to get it to happen,

And noticed another thing I think differently with about stunners is i should not be as sexual flirty,

Like why the fvck not, MIND WHY ARE YOU SO SILLY,

Like i got approached by stunners even when i was a virgin, I just managed to fuck it up in 30 seconds, But I dont even have that shadow anymore.

LIke another girl I dated started listening to my guided meditations before she went to bed,

I dont really I think I have to worry about that i’m not desirable XD.

I also have to actually force myself to approach in Sweden since, I have way more old patterns and social conditioning there, Feel way more free in Budapest and everywhere else for that matter, But this is also just a limit i put on myself,

Like the biggest mental block i put on myself was Oh i need to make way more money before dating hot girls, Where did that belief even come from, It has never been true in my entire life, And even when i had a shit ton of money, the girl wanted to pay for me,

And she got so happy when I said i bought her a smoothie, I might not be rich but I do have money to buy a girl a smoothie XD.

What a interesting sub indeed,

And i have just ran 3 loops,

Really loving the hero wanted stack,

[SwedishBuddha]

Got introduced to some new modalities of shadow work,

Im already super good at somatic and emotional, on myself,

But what i struggle to do on myself is cognitive,

Since even when I studied cbt for 2 years, My subconcious just tricked my therapsit over and over again while running loops around them,

So really looking forward to do more cogntive shadow work on myself, and symbolic,

[SwedishBuddha]

Did a bit of a short sub cocktail though, Wanted, Hero water, My manifest sub, and my wealth custom,

Im so on, Gotten so much work done in 2 hours,

And it’s starting to feel inevitable that im becoming wealthy,

Also found super cool songs on spotify, Who sings about manifestation, Which is great cause I’m starting to lines in my head stuck, Like I dont ask i command, No lack no fear,

I’m already here, Which makes me feel as if, Like neville goddard talks about

Like this song

The Universe Reflects Who You Are, NOW

[SwedishBuddha]

What a freaking epic week had so much fun and got so much work done, Just time to start approaching again in sweden, build the business and live life

[SwedishBuddha]

My worldview after doing emptiness practice around money has completely shifted super cool,

Also https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Kgdr2uytpDI&list=RDKgdr2uytpDI&start_radio=1&ab_channel=AtlanticRecords

This song is such a vibe, Make me feel rich in a very lovign way, God Im gonna become rich to spoil people I love the vibe,