Booking a new tattoo appointment. Planning to add a back piece.
Decided to put my custom on hold until BL Core is updated/sub is released. I can’t wait until they are out.
So this is an update of overall:
The last 5months have been a significant change.
- I’ve moved out.
- Developed a health relationship.
- Got my full driving licence (Today)
- Started therapy (For the love of god, use it if you can, with Subliminal. You’ll see so much change)
- Working out to achieve my dream body (Still in progress)
- Exploring more hobbies.
Consistence sub usage -
- EMP (Name Major)
- GLM (Store version)
- Rich Crypto (Since last month - getting back into trading. Learning the “Bob Volman forex scalping strategy”)
Additions/Past Usage on the side -
- QL (Had this in QTKS W/ EMP & EE cores.)
- ST4 Fire
- Limitless (I would do QL ST4 but I would need to cycle the previous stages)
- EE (Replaced with GLM)
- The Beast (Used that for a long while since it came out but that’s on side)
- ASBR (Tried to go back to stark but yeah I gave it up and ran back to EMP like a bitch)
Others (I did just a lot on to customs or Name Majors)
The main consistence thing I’ve keep from the long run is EMP.
That’s a quick summary of what’s happened.
I might bring Ego ZP back.
Fuuuuccck my arms in so much pain. I keep forgetting the pain of tattoos
Might be recon but it feels like everyone has a problem with me today.
Tattoo is finally done. Time to go hard at the gym again!
I think I’m in an abusive family relationship….
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Yep. I might be going no contact.
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Bought New headphones for gym (skullcandy anc 2).
Figured out the best listening time for me between 1min-1.30mins. I think the shorter the listening time the better like a lot better.
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Updated skincare plan -
Added 3 new products - two cleanser for night time, 1 hydrator.
It’s really upped my skin right now.
Slight update -
I’ve started putting money aside for a ring. I’ve been planning to propose to my GF hopefully next year. I’ve set up a whole plan on how and the type of ring she likes.
Weird thing happening:
Friends are saying I’ve changed. Like a lot. Not in a good way it seems.
I’ve stopped being open. Setting boundaries, and just not wanting to hang out as much.
What do you mean?
Apparently, I’ve defensive about specific topics we spoken about, I can’t take a joke anymore etc.
An update too:
I’ll start ADHD medication as of tomorrow.
Starting to use video journals more often. I find it a lot easier than writing it out.
After watching I’m using transcription software and the refining it.
Video editing is so much fun. I don’t know why I gave this up.
Bought a new external SSD, my old HDD has finally died after 8 years of usage (Lost everything but what can you do).
Well times are tough now.
My relationship is over. I already was going to pick CC to run. Now I’m going to add wanted and something else.
Quick Breakdown from Offline Journal
18/01/2026
I’ll be starting this in a few weeks. I plan to continue my arm piece to my back, and hopefully that’s all. I’m splitting my body between two different styles. Gothic and Japanese.
19/01/2026
My relationship is over. I had therapy; it seemed like I have a lot of pent-up anger from the relationship, but at the same time I feel so much guilt and sadness that I’ve hurt her. Everyone around me says it’s not my fault, but at the end of the day it is.
I could have loved her better. I could have provided better. There was so much I could have done better.
I do not wish to see her hurt, but if I contact her, it will be worse. A lot worse. Do I cancel the gifts I sent to her already? What do I do? Improve myself? None of that would get her back to how we were.
Friends say I should go out and meet new people, but I don’t want that. I want to get better. It was for her, but now? I don’t know. For myself? It’s hard. I hope she will be ok. I pray she lives a better life than she had with me.
Maybe my thoughts will change in a week, maybe not.