Hey all,
I have a personal issue that I feel like I would like to bring to this community. Any advice that you have, whether it’s about what subliminals to listen to or what actions to take with my partner would all be appreciated.
Context: My partner and I are under 30 years old, and I’m 2 years older than her. We have been together for a year and a half, living together for 8 months. Moving in together coincided with a timing that I went on a bipolar medication called lamictal that totally stunted my sex drive. I’ve been off that medication now but my sex drive hasn’t returned all that much. it’s definitely better, but we have a DRAMATIC difference in our sex lives before living together (aka pre-meds) and after living together (aka post-meds). To make it all even more complicated, I dealt with a lot of sexual shame and trauma from ages 13-23 around extreme premature ejaculation. I constantly felt not good enough, I felt like I was going to die alone, I had extreme shame of myself sexually, and I held the fact that I was a quick cummer as a secret for the entire ten years. Point of the story is there’s a lot of emotional trauma in there. It makes it difficult for me to allow my girlfriend to initiate on me. I tense up when she does because it makes me think I’m in “performance mode.”
That wasn’t ever a problem when we started dating because I was always initiating with her, but in recent months, i’ve stopped initiating almost completely… and she isn’t able to initiate because I pretty much clam up at the thought of having sex without it being totally my idea.
I brought up those three confounding factors because I feel like they all play a role. The premature ejaculation fear and trauma, the changed dynamic of moving in together, and the effects of being on a sex-drive decreasing medication, even if that only was for a 5 month period of time (almost 6 months ago now).
If you were me, what would you do? What subs would you listen to to increase sex drive? It is REALLY important to me to stay faithful and monogamous, so I’m concerned that a lot of the subs out there would make me have more sex drive but want to spread it out to everybody.
Heartsong is definitely a good one, but it’s so vague, and I feel like if my girlfriend listens to it and I keep on listening to my custom, that might even be good enough. I’m thinking about more sexually focused subliminals like primal… but I think that might be specifically for men looking to pick up women… I don’t know how that would work in a relationship that I’m not trying to make open/polyamorous, but it could be an interesting addition to my AM/HOM custom cores.
Would the ideal play here be to get a copy of sex mastery? It seems like the simplest subliminals to increase my comfort with spontaneous sex would either be Diamond or SMX.
Perhaps long term, I need to focus on subs like Regeneration to deal with this deeper trauma around the high-school-aged premature ejaculation.
This was helpful to think out loud with. Feedback appreciated as well, and as far are subs are concerned, I’d definitely appreciate clarification around subs like primal, smx, and diamond for increasing comfort with sex, initiation, and relationship quality.
The dying question on my mind is might Primal actually be the answer… even more alpha scripting to help me with social status for business and sales, but also another side to it, working on my sexual comfort and relationship?