Thanks for sharing all this stuff. I live in Canada so these types of circumstances that you’re sharing are pretty foreign to me.
Like others said, I’m not too into the “life purpose” stuff. Anyone can just make this stuff up, lmao. Reminds me of those people who think that they’re the next incarnation of Jesus and that their purpose is to save humanity.
Really, you can do whatever the fuck you want.
I would say to just live life the way Alphamale wants. I’m sure you have goals and desires in different areas of your life. Just run the subs that align with that and craft your reality.
But what does @Alphamale want?
Do you want to go to US for power and and wealth, to learn something, to have better opportunities, live a different lifestyle, experience a different culture, etc? Maybe a mix of things.
Do you want to fornicate with others? Do you prefer the route of seduction?
Maybe I am wrong here, but it seems like there is a lack of clarity in what you specifically want and what specifically motivates you.
If you attribute all motivation and desire to the subliminals, then you are basically saying that your entire self is a projection of the subliminals. You’re not a subliminal, lol.
I feel like you are giving too much credence to the subliminals, to the point that you’ve in some sense lost understanding of yourself. You can always just cut all subs for a period of time and get clarity in what you want.
Not sure if this even helps (might be completely useless reply, lmao).