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#300

Back to building my foundation. Something I sort of regret not taking the time to do years ago. My stack at this time consists of Love Bomb and Ascension. I am sticking with thirty second loops for this cycle as I want to avoid any potential recon. If I do experience recon I will drop it down to twenty seconds and go from there.

Fire got me thinking yesterday about microloops and how I was against them for so long. I’m trying to trust the process and do exactly what’s recommended by the two creators of the titles instead of questioning everything. I don’t really want to cause anyone any headaches so.

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#301

Happy I added Ascension to my stack. Feel better today than I have in a while.

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#302

I think both are healing products focused on self love but LBFH also has the bonus of also sending love to those around you.

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#303

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#304

:boom: what a strong sentence.

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#305
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#306

Added Khan Love and War St 1 to my stack yesterday. Determined to destroy anything that makes me weak so I can get shit done and live my life

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#307

I am absolutely loving Khan L&W St 1 and how I feel with it. It’d as if my emotions become balanced. I’m not apathetic but also not hysterical. Sort of a very pleasant " eh whatever " which is something I have wanted to feel and experience for as long as I can remember. I may have used different words or phrases in the past to describe that feeling but it’s almost been the same thing.

I don’t know if it’s unresolved trauma or being ADHD but I have always hated being a super emotional person. Overreacting and making almost everything in my life unnecessarily difficult when shit could have been so easy and I just could have lived my life and dealt with whatever life threw my way.

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#312

I’m going to do a washout until this coming Sunday , then drop back to LB solo , and take two rest days after each thirty second loop rather than just one.

Hitting crazy recon still and was reading a recommendation in another journal and although I don’t want to do what was suggested I will if I have to. Basically it was run one thirty second loop once a week.

I remember @SaintSovereign telling me that there are titles that he has only run once a week . I think he said he did thirty second loops as well.

I’m trying not to be so focused on what the eventual outcome is as much as the process. Taking into account the advice given when the original version of Dragon Reborn multi stage came out. Don’t set concrete plans or goals.

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#313

If you stop completely for some days does the symptoms disappear?
I mean, are you sure it is recon?

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#314

I’m not sure what else it could be. The desire to continually switch subs seems like a form of recon. I’m not sure

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#315

I don’t want to highjack @subliminalguy s threads I’ll answer in here.

I can run Genesis Mogul for 15 minutes every other day without recon.
Yet I make barely 600 bucks a month.

I’ve run it for months without recon without making any money.

Being able to run a title without recon doesn’t mean to get the results you want.

Others, getting recon, have much better results.

So a part of me would prefer more recon for better results.

But I can’t choose.

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#316

Have you tried micro looping?

I think not having recon can get tricky. Sometimes it can seem like you don’t have recon when in reality you’ve loaded up your processing queue so much you don’t get to the actual execution stage. Other times yes it is full loops without recon for some reason. But I’d say if you’re not seeing the results you want and you’ve run it for months it sounds like you might actually benefit from microloops.

I often compare it to a buffer period. Higher exposure = higher buffer period which means longer length where you won’t feel recon until you take a relatively long washout to have things settle. And the way exposure stacks on these subs is weird. It almost feels exponential at times vs linear so that time scale gets wonky and unpredictable.

Apologies for the derailment of your thread @James

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#317

That was nice to read @Parsifal. Recon’s been hitting, and it’s easy to think I’m doing something wrong.

Your last point had me choke up. It was a very thoughtful thing to share.

(Wipes eyes now)

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#318

I’ve been microlooping the last couple of months I think. But I’ve only seen results once I put LB in the mix. Deserveness etc.
Now I have GM in my custom and I’m very pleased.

I wrote this post not to lament about missing results, I wrote it for James to understand that no recon doesn’t equal results. Because I had neither for months.

And yes, I had recon at the end of last year. Or rather overexposure. I listened to full loops of everything. Emperor, GM, RotNW. Some even more than one full loop. I was the typical greenhorn that thought more exposure means more results.

Now I just tell my subconscious to tell me when it’s enough. So sometimes I listen to 12 minutes sometimes only for 3. But at a point I always hear an alarm bell in my head and I know it’s enough. And I’ve not felt serious recon since I use this technique.

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#319

What’s your general level of acceptance and equanimity to life events?

#320

Found this on Reddit

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#321

Lol. I find myself in each one :sweat_smile:

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#322

Same…

#323

Dang. I feel like I got some of all of them except abandonment.

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