I hope you escape to a better situation soon.
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This Stack was definitely WAY too much to listen to in bed!
Dragon Reborn ST1 QV2
Mogul QV2
Primal QV2
Le Dream
Dream: Back in the Navy. I wake up at my house/apartment at 11 am. I gotta be at the boat by 1 pm for duty. I have a shower…get out of the shower, gonna leave soon because it takes 20-30 minutes to walk to the boat.
next thing I know I’m on the boat, in uniform, going up a ladder, and the COB is below me and I step aside to let him pass because I’m hella disoriented.
thinking “How did I get here? I don’t remember walking here at all let alone putting my uniform on!”
This is another of those where it’s my first day back on a boat, so I’m getting reacquainted with the way stuff is now.
I went to the galley to get some food at lunchtime. They’re using paper plates.
I set my paper plate down at the corner of the table and start putting food on it.
I grab more food and realize my plate isn’t there anymore. some little kid is there with my plate and I said “That’s my plate!”
He shrugged and said “It was on the floor. Mine now! 5-second rule!”
I’m pissed of course but don’t wanna push the issue since I’m hungry as fuck.
Grab another plate, go to put more food on it, and realize that little shit took the rest of it on top of what my plate had!
I said “You took all of it”
He shrugs again so I load up on mashed potatoes instead.
I eat a TON of spuds.
Then I go to an information desk to look at the watch assignments paper (Watch Bill in Navy parlance)
I keep trying to read the watch Bill to see when my training watch is and which station, etc.
I can’t read the paper. The text is jumbled. it takes me a long time to see that I have a watch from 1 am until 2:10 am on a barge and will be trained in how to do the barge watch.
I try to read the rest of the paper to make sure there’s nothing else.
A cute girl sits down in another chair next to me to speak to another worker.
I start talking to her, she’s interested in me. Getting IOIs, we’re hitting it off.
But she realizes quickly on something is wrong with me since I’m still all out of sorts.
She gets weirded out and gets up to walk away and I’m like “I’m sorry I’m like this. I’ll talk to you later!”
and she says “Nah, that’s alright.” and hurries off. (booooooo)
I keep telling people about my “lost time” and that I think something is wrong with me.
I suddenly think “Maybe it’s my blood sugar!”
I go to a nearby desk which is “sick call” (lol) and have them run my blood sugar.
It showed 2 measurements. One is 99, the other is 79.
(I’ve got a Type 2 Diabetes diagnosis IRL) so I tell the girl “That’s the problem! When my blood sugar gets low enough to be what’s good for ‘healthy’ people, I get all weird!”
Then I woke up. I felt fine after a few mins of being awake.
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alternative explanation about the lost time in the dream is my Lucid Dreaming practice may be trying to work
I realized I was suddenly on the boat with no memory of how to get there.
I didn’t get lucid, but could have if the awareness of that fact hit me in the right way.
it was disconcerting though.
imagine suddenly being at the zoo wearing a tuxedo and no memory of getting there or changing into a tuxedo.
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I think tonight I’ll do DR1, AM and PS instead of DR1, M and P
may as well push harder and see what comes out
Listening to DR1 right now, and I just heard a “voice” in my head:
“The Pheromone in your body”. Very brief and that’s all I “heard”
@SaintSovereign am I going crazy? lol
I’ve all but quit my job now. I’m delivering for Instacart. stress level is near-zero. I stopped taking my LexaPro as of Tuesday morning. and I feel fine.
I am not going back to that job.
As for the job, I’m on a medical leave of absence to get my mental shit together.
The fact that not having my LexaPro for 5 days now…tells me it indeed was the job itself leading me to “need” that Cthulhu-awful pill.
Never again.
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Will you be adding WANTED to the stack?
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I ran 2 loops of W today while driving for Instacart:
Wanted (2X)
BILLionaire V2 (1x)
R.I.C.H. V2 solace
it’s great shit
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Not great. Mainly been trying to work on the car. Axle shaft is stuck in place. The “Axle shaft puller” tool I got yesterday didn’t work as it doesn’t stay in place. I’ll get back to where I’m good. just a matter o’ time
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Hang in there, man! I’m cheering you on… but I don’t have any pomp pomps.
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Quite possible the best news I’ve heard all day
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Funniest thing from today:
“I was gona call you beautiful but beauty is on the inside, and I haven’t been inside you yet”
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Hahaha! See? We men aren’t pigs. We are just trying to get inside women to see how beautiful they are on the inside.
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Very thematic dreams on the stack from the last post. I don’t remember details but I know that stack got me good. Love it
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So I’m huffing across town for parts for the Silver Dragon. Listening to Wanted. PCC is up after that. I figure those two should dig in a bit. DR1 will happen later today or tonight
Anyway as I’m walking and listening to Wanted, I realized I’m walking more upright and had been at least 5 mins before I noticed. I am a perpetual sloucher.
I posted this to Snapchat right after to capture the mood and the moment:
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is “Huffing” the right word? I got to wondering that last night lol. Huffing it? Hoofing it? Anyway I was walking a lot.
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