Hey so quick backstory. I had a very rough childhood/middle school and high school experience. I was always very skinny not and the best looking and was bullied. Now being 24 ive gained good muscle/bulked up + gotten good looking and making alot of money however my energy levels and mindset and even charisma is still as if im the same kid in HS.
Ive been running Khan stage 1 to heal from this and ive had an amazing/rough experience so this is why i have a question.
The first day running Khan stage 1 was totally insane. I was insanely charismatic + had amazing energy and and feeling of happiness running through me and felt like the person i know i am/became. However the next day i was back to “base level” and this stayed the same for around a month. A few nervous ticks of mine have disappeared but ive never returned to that amazing level i was at.
I decided to stop for a week then get on Khan stage 1 again. Once again the first day that amazing charismatic high energy version of me , then once again back to "base level for another month or so then i stopped listening again. Also an important note was their were times during the month where my energy levels and charisma were high again but it was not consistent.
Can anyone here guide me/help me on what is happening? The SUB is clearly working amazing at times but why do i keep falling back down again?
My theory is maybe when first getting hit with the subs my mind processed it and gave me what i was looking for - But then my mind was being stubborn and bringing me back. So is the best possible play to stick it out and continue until i get to that level consistently. Or is it possible its time to start reprogramming with a primal or khan stage 2 now?