Journeys from the darkness to the light

Journals - Custom Subliminals
#22

I’ve had some pretty interesting stuff happen recently that I can only contribute to WB. For starters I got some money back from my landlord since I moved out early and made some money in my online shop, which seems like nothing but I was in the negative but after a few days I will have a great cushion, all this coming out of nowhere. I hope to build on this and build to better things. I did have an opportunity to work with a wealthy person, if that goes well, it could lead to actually making real money.

On the women side of things, it has been stagnant and slow. Saw some looks here and there but didn’t really materialize to anything big or special. Microloops and breaks in between has helped a lot in terms of fatigue and recon. I’m going to finish this run and see where I’m at and probably add GLM to replace LE in my stack.

LBFH stack seems to keeping toxic people away all the while keeping those who might be of help close. My toxic mother has been avoiding my like a plague and it feels awesome, there’s a sense of respect even when discussing my name. I have ran lbfh since June and I think I’ll keep running it to see where it takes me

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#23

One thing I noticed with WB recon in myself is indecisiveness, not knowing whether I want to stick with something or not. There have been times where I felt like insecure and jealous over something that I had no right to feel jealous over. I’ve been feeling less than and like in a scarcity mindset and have been journaling to find the root cause…every time I journal I keep getting the same answer, not having the validation and acceptance of my mom and ends up having me clinging to women trying to get that maternal love I never had, which is probably the reason why I’ve dated older women who were already married. I feel like I need to heal that inner sense to seek validation from others and that jealous factor will vanish. LBFH has helped kind of expose a lot of my insecurities and pitfalls but it’s still been tough changing my thoughts.

I’m going to push forward though for a couple of more days and stop my cycle on the 7th or 8th, I want to do a good 2 weeks washout to integrate everything.

The one distinct thing I realized is that my inner voice is pretty negative on this stack, when it comes to women and everything. When I ran emperor in my stack, my inner voice was more positive and uplifting which makes sense because I had an emperor custom with inner voice module.

Can’t wait for a washout, it can’t come soon enough. I get easily irritated rn and some people are getting on my nerves at work while running this stack.

#24

I increase my WB to 5 mins yesterday after completely messing up what could’ve been a perfect seduction technique I just came up with which seems to make the person I was interested in literally begging to hear more from me but my neediness and nice guy tendencies kicked in, over laughing, over smiling, over approval seeking and just threw everything off ugh… but today I did something that I usually don’t do, I went hard when working out, I had this sense of accomplishment and to just run till I met my running goal, with motivation and determination. I also, for the first time in a long time, am thinking of updating my wardrobe and getting better shoes even though I’m broke right now. Theres been a persistent determination in me to get in shape and just get my shit together. The master of worlds module in my name embed WB custom has been interesting because its made me into a calculated seducer though I need way way more work on it. I was definitely more hornier today but instead of watching porn, I just stroked one out just to get rid of the urge. Now I’m busy trying to build myself up. I even thought about improving my look, more specifically my teeth. Tho the urge to switch subs has been stronnggggg more specifically WB, lbfh for whatever reason has been smooth.

#25

I’ve been taking 5 days rest now, my last day was supposed to be on the 9th as my 21 days. I dropped LBFH and LE from my stack to lighten the load and still have been feeling exhausted and tired even with no exposure. I wake up tired asf but horny asf too, a complete paradox lol. I’m going to extend my washout for two weeks at least and decide what direction to go from there.

The one thing I’ve noticed is the social aspect from WB or was it LBFH, whichever one has had people coming up to me to talk to me randomly at work who work there ofc and some who don’t. I think my brain is processing WB because when I ran WB LBFH custom and Emperor custom a few cycles back , I didn’t really get as tired, but when I lightened and stopped running LBFH and LE on the 29th, I started to feel more tired and exhausted, like WB is not on queue anymore and I’m getting the tiredness that people have been talking about. Will probably just stick to running WB and then add Wanted, then drop WB and add primal seduction the next cycle.

Not sure if I mentioned it in my journal but my bank account went from negative to having a pretty good cushion, all out of nowhere too. The money part of WB has been a little bit easier compared to the looks and women part of WB…I can see that I’ve still got long ways to go but I think its in the right direction though, at least now I know I’m actually processing WB…The recon on the washout has been high, I don’t know why. Feelings of anxiousness and fear has been bubbling up without any reason, I just feel anxious with no second thought. Just a gut feeling. I hope it passes so I can focus on the new wanted and eventually add in PS with singularity polarity name embed…just to see where it takes me