I’ve been experimenting with the newest tech all day to try out more of its features. I found that, apart from making reconciliation rapid and profound, it also allows you to initiate deeper-level reconciliation—or, in this case, I would rather say consolation (as it’s related to profound healing)—where my conscious mind was actively guiding my subconscious to deeper levels so that I could find the door my subconscious holds shut (the very subconscious structure that needs to be reconciled and which triggered the whole process—trauma, blockage, limiting belief, etc.), and therefore be able to work on opening it.
It all started with something that happened in the house. One of us broke my water gun and didn’t admit it since it’s still working—just not properly—that triggered the usual sense of being mistreated (I was heavily traumatized in childhood, so things like that tend to trigger my psyche). Yet, I realized I could do whatever I wanted with that trigger. I decided to let it overflow me to get to yet another door my subconscious is holding shut. A deep sadness overtook me at the thought of “common human egoism”—not for the first time in my life, however. Still, I could clearly see how I tend to discard all the good someone has done for me just because of a petty thing like that broken water gun. I could have ended this lovely reconciliation session at that point, yet I decided to abide in that sadness to get closer to that shut door. The crying of the soul began…
Finally, I found THAT DOOR—and I realized why my subconscious was holding it so desperately. Disqualifying people so easily is my “tactic” to avoid being hurt on deeper levels. Yet the consequence of that is always being alone and never being seen for who I really am… never being truly loved. The terrible consequence of holding that door shut is condemning myself to “carrying the weight of the world upon my shoulders” and knowing no relief.
I found it consoling that, despite human egoism and my own pettiness in that matter, the world is still a beautiful and amazing place I want to be part of. I felt real joy at that thought.
It’s yet another door that the newest tech helped me find and open… all of that within just three days. Amazing.
I would like to point out that all the doors I’ve found and opened so far are strictly related to the social aspect of my life. I haven’t encountered any doors related to WANTED or QL yet. Perhaps that’s because I need the “relevant triggers” for reconciliation on those subs.
