so this Rm thing
had me all fucked up
but again, with a lot of certainty (and still possibly some uncertainty may come and I gotta deal with it)
I think my current stack is amazing
thing is, I can benefit a lot from running this for a very long time I feel and there’s so many stuff covered, yes, sure Rm may have something different, but what I’ve got here should really be able to give me all that I want from Rm or any other program
and I hate feeling FOMO
furthermore, I think everything is already inside our own consciousness and this just reinforces it
the subs are great tools but I gotta develop a healthier relationship with them and not be so anxious when a new program comes about what I might be missing out on etc
I guess I have plenty already and when I’m done with this I’ll be in such an amazing place, and the journey I have in mind I’m just 10% of the way there maybe and already the results are mindblowing
so let’s take it slow and see where we go
I guess I should stick with this stack for now and reap more and more of its benefits
maybe even a year or longer
God help me 
Also I hope we really can get a better way of optimising our stacks
I mean, info wise - like, RM contains some stuff, bu everything seems a bit entangled
with alchemist, etc I’m like ok that program with QL with Stark with etc etc etc should be able to give similar results with conscious guidance
I know, different strokes for different folks, and I know each program has its own unique way of doing things, but it gets really confusing
or maybe it’s just me who is very obsessed with stuff, but still, this presentation improving would be really awesome
but yea, still thinking, I see that all these programs I’m running really should somehow be able to give me all I’m looking for, including the things I see in RM
esp when Alchemist is added into the mix
now, not sure - saint said probably not, but he also recommended sticking with this -
I did some divination etc, the answer was I should stick wit this
I should stick with this
I think DR is also fuckign with me a bit 