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#15

Name Embedded Wanted + Perfection Manifestation has arrived :star2:

I believe NE is 8x more effective than store bought titles (which are already effective as fuck). Here’s why…

  • I started art school for adults and for a little while feeling like I regressed into that scared child, I grew into it, feeling welcomed in and doing what I absolutely love to do, being surrounded by similar people. However I’ve spotted a flame haired beauty who is a little reserved and committed to the cause and she fascinates me so much. I’m not a risk of losing my Wanted edged but she is something…

  • Also speaking to another woman in class, I noticed she became more and more girly, smiling and playing with her fingers. She is tethered, so no chance, but it felt strange watching her get excited as if sex was coming…

  • Outside the school I walked past the high street and subconsciously spotted a younger woman crossing my path and for a hot minute I felt like she was a potential partner. It felt like an invisible radar was locked into something, “the field” or whatever you want to call it.

  • I feel so locked in to the Wanted archetype, no inhibition, feeling calm, suave and sure. When I need to keep it professional, I can. When it’s time to tap, we do it. Can’t wait for a full NE cycle and more creative time.

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#16

Gonna follow your journal with interest! You’re running the same NE Wanted Custom now.

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#17

I will say this to you @GoldenBird

Name embedded is effective, no doubt about it. Having a challenging sub with your name read out makes it easier to integrate.

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#18

Milestone unlocked:

Saw a woman reading a book (Octavia Butler, all Critical Studies educators are at least familiar with :innocent:) on the train. However she sat deliberately where she could see me, so I took it as an invitation. Mentioned the book was interesting and she warmly agreed ! However I got off the train at this point like a scared child, but at least I opened.

In other words, as a mute, I opened my mouth and it was rewarded

Feminine signal > masculine recognition > female openings

Not only that, I look like a smooth operator “player”.

Name embedded is the shit. :fire:

#19

If I ever forget why I need a reason to run these subs, this video explains it better than I ever could:

Lost my 20s and moved out in my 40s. It’s ok to be behind in life.

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#20

Mirror Lust

I’m still waiting for those “kiss your coworker” type of results :laughing: sounds fun, thrilling and awkward as hell…

Although the wait may not be that long:

  • Coworkers recognise the sexual tension I bring, but no one is biting, which is a good thing, however a few of the students did. Kept everything professional. One student was bold enough to ask me a question about myself, with an appropriate response.

  • Got a near full frontal display from a woman with her close female friend. The train gets packed in the park hour and close contact is expected, women in this situation would close off their body. However this train was not full enough that she would stand in front of her seated friend, help pick lint and strands of her hair off her body whilst standing adjacent to me.

  • Another cafe moment, this time a very sexy black curly haired woman doing the mirror gaze trick. The first time I looked I thought she was seeing something outside, but it was me she was staring hard at, so I acknowledged it. But the second time, she stared back whilst ruffling her hair and licking her lips in the process.

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#21

The wait really may not be long…

A woman dressed in a very bright red coat and red nightie dress appeared opposite me, she looked like she was… never mind. But that’s a visual reflection of what’s going on with the sub.

Then beside me a woman started applying makeup before I sat next to her (like she knew I was coming).

EDIT: later on a mother with her daughter also sat opposite, the daughter making several direct gazes at me, the dynamic was the mother also competed for my attention. However the daughter put in a lot more effort with glances, so much so that the mother appeared to be vexed and became closed off.

It’s hard to imagine what my effect is on women, but the scarlet woman is an excellent indicator - I feel hot and sexy as fuck…and a little dangerous. Do you hesitate or do you get your fingers burnt in the flames of desire… :fire: Bring on the next stage!

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#22

An absolutely hot woman, dressed in a white tank top with a greyhound. Oh man…

don't look here

Wanted - name embedded - questions from the future past:

  • What was it like getting laid with a hot woman I simply met on the train?
  • How did you just pick up women so easily?
  • How did I get so good with the ladies?
  • How did I become the man, the myth, the “one that got away”?
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#23

Been wanting to talk to her for ages since the first day of term. The odd thing is that we both felt the tension of not speaking to each other (the hot guy/girl syndrome) but our bodies orbited each other. So I made the effort and the ice is now broken.

Now the Wanted swagger has arrived :fish:

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#24

the Wanted chronicles 1

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#25

the Wanted chronicles 2

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#26

I’m sorry for interrupting, and I kindly ask for a bit of patience and understanding from you, as I’m a seeker myself and I see an opportunity to deepen my own understanding thanks to your current experiences on WANTED.

Please understand that I don’t mean to discredit your experiences, but rather to offer another perspective based on my own experiences with Zero Point. Perhaps you could help me develop that perspective, if you would be so kind as to reply to my post.

Thanks.

I saw that you mentioned that it was resolved after answering the question and that you experienced some shifts. Yet it may be that this very question, which is so closely related to your self-concept, is actually a reflection of some deeper limitation you hold.

Oftentimes, deeper blockages and fears take the form of the “rational” discourse we’re used to having in our heads. Yet that very discourse is only a byproduct of encountering those blockages and fears—it has no real power to resolve them.

If you were to guess, what kind of blockage or fear might be hidden beneath the question you posed and the discourse you said brought you some shifts? I ask because I’m not convinced that this kind of “rational” discourse can resolve deeply held limitations. On the contrary, it can give us the illusion that we’ve dealt with them.

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#27

I did look into why the results opened up quite dramatically on that day and no the issue hasn’t fully resolved itself at all, in fact that particular question has recycled again, like @SaintSovereign predicted.

However I know there are much deeper issues here at play that I’ve chronicled in previous journals, most of them tackled with success with DRLD, so it’s not surprising that some beliefs still remain, such as “no one will ever love me”, “it’s all my fault”, “setting boundaries makes me selfish”, “risking vulnerability is risky”, “I hate sex”, being desperate for results to come quickly etc.

Despite that, for a moment or two, Wanted shone its full light beam and it was amazing, speaking to a woman who just moved city and was one more conversation away from getting her details. It will take longer for me unfortunately and the logical recon is evidence.

#28

To add to the above recon episodes, what came up for me today for example was that if you were partnered, that meant someone saw worth and blessed you as worthy. That felt invalidating and rage inducing to me. Why them and not me? What the fuck is wrong with me? Why have I been denied? Why am I worthless?

Then I said to everyone else in my mind to leave me alone and fuck off. I have a career that I love, and art practice that I’m rededicating myself to. I don’t like unpredictable “does she like me, doesn’t she” flim-flam, I’m not interested. Don’t float near me with your thug boyfriend in full view.

Most definitely self worth, self love, pedestaling, Nice Guy issues being challenged by the scripting.

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#29

Recon remonstrating

The following is recon rage:
Experiencing the tail end of an emotional storm Wanted, it kicked up all of my unworthiness issues, and I’m still pissed at the poster who in a roundabout way said my results weren’t real because of the type of recon that showed up. It isn’t your fault but you came from nowhere to say it. triggered something deep in me.
My thought patterns are now who cares. Who cares whether someone wants sex off me. I’m clearly a loser, so I don’t give a fuck. Run to your troglodyte boyfriend and leave me alone.

  • A woman smiled at me
    So fucking what?

I’ve chased chuff like a stupid puppy selling my soul in the process. You live and learn, except I don’t.

None of this attraction game is real, it’s a bullshit illusion designed to trick the gullible. So I’ll ride it out then focus on myself so hard others would wish to be in my presence.

Now tell me again this is recon, I double dare you…

#30

What a thought process haha, interesting how your personality shows in your in recon / thought process

Why wouldn’t you be able to be desirable though? Everyone can be desirable. If you truly believe that about yourself then it will show in your energy and you will start to attract people like nothing you have ever seen before.

All it takes sometimes is a shift in perspective and perception. Good luck!

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#31

Self Esteem ≠ being desirable

Tying up my worth in women is being decoupled with Wanted and it was such a strong tie that I reacted like a frustrated child upset that no one wants to pick me for football. It’s releasing now and trusting in the lesson of self worth being separate from being a attractive man. These IOIs are still happening when I’m pissed off so that’s that. Seems I’m being rewarded for letting go of scared Nice Guy behaviour.

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#32

Adding to this report, I feel where Wanted wants to take me and it’s about self love and not giving so much psychic energy to chasing a result, women or a relationship. Right now I feel like I don’t give a flying fuck about “getting the girl” or energy spikes around a woman showing interest, it just feels like “meh”. Plus I did some energy healing around the themes of validation, love and shame and that felt so cathartic to release that heavy reaching energy. My swagger and looser behaviour is now genuine, springing from a real like of myself. I won’t stop chasing results altogether but really “who cares”?

Great stuff.

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#33

Add to this (again)

My self worth has improved significantly, I can shrug off people who aren’t my bag much quicker, dismiss those who dismiss me and reaffirm my passions in life. I have a career in a field I was born to thrive in.

I like my life right now. Add a few sexual partnerships and I am good.

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#34

Some highlights:

Teased a shop worker because she was interested in some of the stock on the shop floor, however it looked to me like she was sneaking around the corner watching me choosing art supplies. I knew she wasn’t actually watching me, however I did say to her:
“I feel like I’m being watched…!” She laughed.

When it came to buy my supplies I said to her:

"Oh o, it’s the stalker…".
“I’m not a stalker, I work here!”
“Just because you wear a [colour] shirt doesn’t mean you actually work here, anybody can get a shirt like that…!”
“Ok, fine, I am stalking you!”
"Cool, I’m here for it!"

All natural wit from me, with WANTED.

Gave a lecture in front of my class and surprisingly wasn’t nervous in the slightest.

Then popped my head in a classmate’s studio who I had previously talked with and she gladly came to see my working space. All the time she was positively engaged, me throwing in a few jokes… Nice to know we artists are just super awkward.
She has now made a serious bid to be “friends” and has overtaken the redhead who I still have an eye on, because, yknow, redheads :heart_eyes:

And it’s only 2 weeks gone on New Wanted !! (w/ 1 cycle of OG Wanted)

Saw @Skadoosh mention 8-9 months of OG Wanted use and he wears suits and shit, I think he had several partners during that time?

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