Seductress. You should run seductress.
You’ll become world champion of any sport, immediately hired by any company with a diversity policy, be loved by all, become famous, be truly independent and powerful
Stack it with Gaming Mastery X and life will literally become a video game for you and you’ll have the cheat codes
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I understand what you’re saying. I’m not trying to run Spartan. I was asking Fire what sub if any relates to what goggins does. I do want a stronger mindset.
I remember talking with Billions before I was running DR about Assertiveness and how Ascension would be great. How I have shit boundaries being a fearful avoidant attachment style. I lack internal power.
I also feel this push to act, move, do but my ability to sustain/maintain is at a low level for now. I was hoping @Fire would drop some knowledge Bombs about activities or practices that strengthen a man’s mindset.
I feel the development of Glm and yes I would like more internal growth/power. I don’t see how adding Ascension would be a bad thing. I do agree that one more cycle with Glm/LotS is a good idea. I’m just feeling a lot of pressure to act/change and I might be looking for more direction from Ascension.
More results = more time not more exposure
Thursday - 12:30am.
DRLD - 5 mins.
LotS - 5 mins.
This marks the end of cycle two.
I think I should apply for the job I’ve been thinking about over the weekend, even if it’s just to see what it’s like. I just got my vacation days July 1st so if I did end up leaving, I’d need 1 months notice just to use up what I’ve earned.
I feel borderline obsessed with getting into shape. One of my orders of gym equipment came yesterday and I refused to open it because if I set it up, I’d end up working out and I really struggle with rest days lately. I’m always doing something.
I should sit down this weekend and really define what I want. I’ve said it before that I feel this big push of motivation/energy but I’m missing direction. I’m not really 100% sure where I’m going yet. What the smart decision is. Could just be fear limiting me, hence the DRLD recon.
Time to washout and let everything process and bloom.
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What if you alternate sub days and workout days?
Sub rest day is without day.
Workout day is sub day listening day.
Etc
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I run loops M/Th
I workout M/W/F
…but on the rest days I stretch and just seem to automatically transition into doing more. It’s not a full workout but I’m obviously exercising. I just feel so motivated. I just can’t wait to change ya know? Lol
Let’s see how the washout goes, maybe I’m just overstimulated.
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Submitted job application to the company closer to my home. We will see
Felt anxious doing so, I wonder why
Always remember, complacency kills…I’ve been stagnant for 8 years at this current job. Do I not want better?. Probably just the fear of leaving a union shop for one that’s not. The illusion of safety, familiarity and comfort. All unhealthy for a man.
Washout
It’s funny yesterday how neurofeedback countered some recon I was experiencing. Therapist said I’m finally getting on the right track. It takes awhile I guess. I’m starting to embrace possibilities and opportunities, I didn’t realize this was a result of brain training. The fear and dysregulation going away as the brain corrects itself 
I’m starting to see more muscle definition in my arms and legs, the progress I’m making is showing. Around 142lbs currently but I’m adding muscle. I was doing shoulder presses with dumbells and felt this weird feeling in my right arm, it wasn’t painful but felt like a secondary muscle was activating to help with press? I used to have a dormant lower rhomboid muscle on my right side in my 20s, I wonder if something is happening with that.
With this low carb plan I’m on, I’m hungry every 2 to 3 hours I swear. But my discipline with food is great so I’m dealing.
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I have 5 sessions of neurofeedback and I do not feel anything unusual but still gonna do my plan of having at least 20 sessions.
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It took me 13 sessions I think where I’m at but I have different issues. Are things going well for you?
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Yes, outside of neurofeedback yes, thanks for asking.
Two days into washout and the recon is impressive. This is all from DRLD, if I ever run it again it’ll be 3 mins.
Trip I had was canceled and rescheduled. While annoyed, I didn’t get emotionally expressive.
Ended up working OT yesterday but because I had good productivity I’m no longer needed tonight therefore I lost out on double time. Big resentment, makes want to lower productivity in the future since working hard doesn’t pay apparently.
Tired even after sleeping 8 hours.
No interest in doing anything. My two fitness orders arrived by Thurs and I forced myself to open/set up one. The others in the box still, since Thurs. I can’t seem to give a shit this weekend.
Irritable, unfriendly and disinterested. I’m angry over things but don’t have enough clarity on what. It’s this faint sense of disappointment in myself and all the choices I’ve made in my life and how I’d be so much better off if I wasn’t such a fucktard. I guess I’m displeased.
I haven’t felt this shitty since running Dragon Reborn.
DRLD is no joke, it’s having its way with me way and it doesn’t feels good.
I’ve been on low carb for awhile but I bought a dairy free/vegan ice cream (dairy gives me migraines, I’m not a vegan) to see if the sweets will help this recon. Consider it a cheat day.
8 more days…DRLD definitely disrupts. I’ll keep it to healing stacks and use O.G. LD if I feel stuck in the future.
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Oh hey glm + lots twin
I guess venting above was enough to get me to take action. Opened the other box, set up everything and did a workout. My energy wasn’t there but I got after it enough to start sweating with an increased heart rate.
Like Jocko always says, Discipline is doing the things you don’t want to do regardless. It still counts
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My face seems different. When I look at myself, I seem different. I can’t figure out exactly what’s changed but it looks more solid, maybe symmetry has improved though I was never really that un-symmetrical.
No more dark lines, thin skin or circles under eyes. Eyes seem brighter as well.
Body definition is starting to show in shoulders, quads, calves but I’m still about a good 15 to 20lbs from lean. I’m not seeing(what I’d call enough) enough leaning. I’m eating two meals a day spaced about 8 to 10 hours apart. Exercising 2 to 3 times a week.
Energy has been low, lethargic low yesterday and today. I’m either shifting or my body is becoming more efficient and the half a sleeping pill I take each morning is more effective causing this. I’ve always had issues sleeping since I was a teen. I’m hesitant to stop taking but sooner or later it’ll have to happen and I don’t like the use regardless.
Before this stack and due being depressed for decades I would shower 3 to 4 days a week, usually skip weekends since I never went out or did anything but chill inside, isolated. Point being that since Glm, I now shower every day. Even days where I say I’m not that dirty or don’t feel like it…I do. The consistency is on point. I find it quite automatic in how I seem to operate on the daily now.
My diet is much simpler and more regimented. Less internal dialogue when exercising, doing chores and tasks. That mental resistance/procrastinative line of thinking is just no longer an issue. Only when in reconciliation does stinking thinking have an effect but not always do I act on it.
I do seem to be struggling with direction though, what’s the next move or where I want to take my life in the future. The unnerving sense of pressure is building and I just don’t have an answer. I tell myself to just focus on changing my body as you can’t be an Alpha male if you’re out of shape and don’t respect yourself(my opinion). I also tell myself to make sure my environment is a reflection of my inner state, that my home and immediate environment is squared away and worthy of a masculine man.
I heard a rumour at work yesterday that the owner is giving us 6 months to get out of the red and improve or he might shut this company down. That’s December, so I am glad I applied for that other job. I’ve been thinking positively and visualizing getting a call. I’m hoping this is a start to positive change job wise and that I can go back to days, as I do feel my body wants to go back to a “normal” circadian rhythm.
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I’ve been looking at barefoot shoes all week, watched vids and read all about it. I’ve been having a hard time standing compared to last cycle, my feet, legs ect are changing due to stretching and exercising and of course LotS.
I decided to buy a pair of shoes from Xero, the Prio Neo. I seem to be really interested in physical optimization. This feels like what Wanted does for ppl who run it, they buy colognes and clothes. And for me, LotS has me buying gym equipment and barefoot shoes and changing my diet around.
I replaced my boots insoles a few weeks ago and it seems these ones are not good, so I’ll buy another pair but the pull to switch footwear is strong. It sucks because I haven’t found a barefoot style steel toe boot yet, best is catapillar sneaker but I already have another pair of boots ready to go. I’ll try it next time but I’ll wear the barefoot shoes everywhere else.
Anyone using barefoot shoes? Any opinions if you see this.
Aside from all that, I’m either super stoic/reserved or DRLD is still executing as I feel this denseness within, less expressive and a little disconnected from the present. I haven’t heard from the job I applied to yet and my job is getting slow. I’m feeling aggravated at my situation but I’m focusing on what I can control for now.
It’s a weird feeling to have no real plans for the future and feel kind of absent minded yet also be taking steps to change. It’s a weird dichotomy I’m in.
Thanks to Palpatines post about Yardbird, I actually read his journal yesterday. It was inspiring. You don’t see many journals these days of such impressive changes. I wonder what other journals there are of members who’ve changed like Yardbird.
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I have used it. I had running barefoot shoes, not that duck one, but with normal looks. The main disadvantage is since the platform is lower and slimmer after a few months I got a hole in it, which with normal shoes it can happen after a long long time, but not like this after a few months.
Regarding health benefits. I did not see any. Maybe it need many months to see something, but after I got that hole in the platform I went back to normal shoes.
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I kinda wanna know what happened with Jen lol
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