battling recon in the form of hopelessness, desire to just give up. Lots of digging into myself. At the same time my mind throws images of characters from books/anime/tv series/movies, known for their perseverance. Or even moments of my life in which I kept going despite feeling hopeless and succeeded because of that
I need to aid it through action.
So what I just did is I did the plank exercise, standing on my fists, for 2 minutes. My usual time is 1 minute in normal plank (not on fists) and I haven’t done plank in years, but I decided to do 2 minutes to see if I can keep going without giving up
It seems to have resolved recon a bit, both in giving me some form of a winner’s mindset, and also released some energy through physical exercise
I plan on doing similar challenges in the future to aid in the formation of the following beliefs:
I’m going to use 2 subs for this cycle, too early to add anything.
Reflecting back and reading through my journals, I’ve been too “hyperactive”, at the edge and losing hope lol. That’s the nasty part of emotional healing but it too shall pass and I’m going to get stronger in the end.
But, for smoother progress I’ll decrease AM to 45 seconds and focus on taking as much action as possible.
love this
My sleep hasn’t been as good for the last couple of days so that’s another sign for me to reduce exposure
literally me at the moment lol
I’ve got one more night of rest, if that recon isn’t sorted out by the time of my next planned loops, I’ll take additional rest day. AM is no joke, I heavily underestimated it
We can’t go wrong with taking an addtional day off, mate.
I’m feeling much better today and results are exploding. Seems like I worked through the issues at 1min of AM. Still, I’ll do 30-45 sec for the next loop just to stay on safer side.
to elaborate a bit:
day 7 - AM (45 sec) + RICH (3:30 min)
Not feeling as hyperactive but too early to say
Recon is much less but still here - I’m not as excited and productive.
Still, seems like 45 sec is my sweetspot at the moment.
Also, considering shortening my cycle to something like 10-14 days instead of 1 on 2 off schedule.
And also, I’m considering adding Stark Black to my stack at something like 5seconds and trying to slowly build up. Going to experiment with it - can I build foundation with AM and simultaneously, work with Stark Black.
it passed rather quickly, after 1-2 hours I was a machine.
Today was a good day, I did some work, I studied a bit for my profession, I watched some general self improvement courses (and got some interesting things to try)
day 8 - rest + Ascension Chamber (10s)
feeling quite well, potential clients started responding more often which is a good result
day 10 - SB (5s) + RICH (3:30)
Just listened the loops. Got an unusual energy, mental clarity and motivation boost halfway into the RICH - I believe it is SB that started processing by the time because I’ve been listening to RICH for quite some time, I don’t think it would have such effect all of a sudden
so far 5 seconds seem nice. Didn’t expect it to have any noticeable effect at all on me, but seems like my sensitivity has grown
I’m noticing more strategical inclinations with my thinking, and generally feeling a bit different than usual - but can’t pinpoint what exactly feels different
Was just typing a post on how I haven’t been seeing results from RICH lately and wondering if there’s some deeper work is going, or I need to decrease exposure again
But then I realized that I’m getting insane first clients as a freelancer, working with whom will open up a ton of opportunities for me in the near future
I won’t be increasing RICH for a while, it will stay at 3:30. Instead, I’ll focus on AM (45 sec currently, 1 min next time; increasing by 15-30 sec) and Stark Black (5s currently, will be adding 1s each listening day)
Seeing weird dreams, and woke up groggy from a nap. hmmm…
I guess it’s from SB, I also didn’t sleep that well this night… can it really be that 5 seconds is too much?!
I did run it at full loops at some point in the past, but I guess I tapped maximum in 1% of the sub
And even running it at micrloops of 3 min (which I did too) didn’t really allow for fast enough processing and reconciliation, thus, not giving me the necessary results