20 Days since my last post, sorry for slacking guys.
Let me explain where I’ve been.
I’m someone who follows their gut & acts on it pretty much instantly. Sometimes this is a good thing, other times not so much. If I feel hungry I’ll eat, if I feel like travelling for miles just to enjoy life, I’ll do that… And that is what I did. 2 weeks of travelling - spending lots of cash, enjoying nature & meeting great people. For the first time in years I was experiencing what it was to LIVE. No stress. No drama. Just living free, even if I could only sustain it for 2 weeks or so. It made me think of ways to turn this short lived experience into a long term lifestyle.
Rather than saving every last penny, I decided to use my money to have an experience. No regrets, it was just what I needed.
Right… As for the subs, it’s the same kinda situation:
- 3-4 hours sleep
- No desire to be social
- No time for anything serious with women - Met a few women since starting Emperor. Once I spend a few hours around a girl, I’m ready to have my own space again. Though sex has been much better since Emperor, I struggle to stay in the moment… I’d rather be working. “I’ma always take the money over sex” - Drake
- More trust in myself & my decisions.
- Feeling more aggressive which is helping massively in the gym. Going to start mma soon as I would like a new physical challenge.
- Can see through all the bullshit. Whether it be the lies we are told by mainstream media, or the lies we tell to ourselves. Done with entertaining such nonsense.
Here’s a new thing - CRAZY DISCIPLINE
No matter what happens to me, I still get shit done. I’ve been going to bed at 02:00 most days, yet when 05:30 rolls around I’m up & off to the gym with no problem whatsoever. Nearly fell asleep on the spinning bike this morning! Truth is, the sleep would be much better, though it doesn’t appear to be option. Either I work or my brain manipulates me with negative shit from years ago like me being fat & broke… Seriously fucking annoying!
StarkQ feels wasted with Emperor, not exactly noticing it due to my current lifestyle.
Set some reminders on my phone to update this journal more regularly so hopefully I won’t disappear again!
Have a great day folks.