Great to hear. I wanted to put Empath in my custom (especially since I am one but I get too overloaded with other people’s feelings). No space in my custom though so will manage.
I can relate to that “building a wall so that others won’t hurt me” feeling too but it is better to allow the “river to flow through you” while you remain a rock. Seems like you got the hang of it. Kudos!
I am now in Lima and tomorrow I fly to iquitos.
In 5 days I go into the Jungel for 2 months.
Until later my friend’s have a good time and in 2 months I am back
Have a great time, and may your healing be big and profound!
Thank you Bro
It’s my first 9 days without subs since over 1 year.
And oh boy in these 9 days I felt like every shit inside me is pushing out of me I had the most horrible and best 9 days so far (in terms of releasing emotions and energy).
Rest days are important but rest weeks are more important in my experience.
From now on I integrate rest weeks.
Tomorrow it’s finally time to go into the Jungel for 2 months.
@ everybody, have a great time
All the love to you! Enjoy yourself 
Have an amazing time in the Jungle, and
may your journeys with the Grandmother bring you many blessings
for your life and all beings!
Long time have passed since I wrote here.
I made a ST4 custom and that’s my experience so far.
I did listen to it 3 hours before bed and I stood up very calm until now(3 days ago)
In fact I liked this so much that I did 2 loops on the same day.
Since then many unhealthy beliefs and automatic responses pop up, in the same time I already change them for my good.
Then I try something different with this new gained abilitys: I open tinder and start to swipe, after 1 min some very nasty hate arises : I hate them because they didn’t give me what I want.
Instantly I grabbed this hate in the neck (so to speak) and tell the hate : they are not obliged too.
the whole hate dissolved in my hand.
Then I had a couple attempts to badmouth women in my head ( like accuse them of : you are wrong how you are) this was the moment I realized that this is the information my parents transmitted to me.
Very easy I sayd to this accusations I had in myself : no, not true, I am way better than that, I don’t need this anymore, in reality I can give myself healthy compliments and I can power myself up so CIAO
a couple of hours later I was laying on the bed and I have this slight shaking that rushed trough my body, suddenly it turned to a very weak state, I saw myself drowned in self pity, I crawled up so fast and with power I sayd to the self pity : you are worthless to me I destroy you now.
I attacked it with my energy, I saw where it’s coming from and used my energy as a sword and then I cut trough self pity.
OH body I had to run to the toilet and vomited so hard 3x.
After that I enjoyed a sense of worthiness that holds until now.
Its out 
Then all of a sudden it hit me so hard : I was never left alone
It feels like that but it’s not true
Yes my father left me alone a couple of times in the supermarket when I was a little child and the police nedded to search him
And my mother did some really cold things
But I was never really alone
I just felt that way
Then miraculously the whole state of : I am alone in this world exploded, it just vanished out of me in 20 min
3 times I was confronted with fear I had since I was a child, I just grabbed it and slaughter the fear to death. End of the Story 
No more room for that
One major thing I noticed is when I play the loop, the first 10 min it’s like a blocked state is lifted.
The notion of : I don’t heal, I don’t recover is smashed away and I hear myself saying : I heal everything now and I do.
Next loop in 2 hours 