Dragon Reborn GOLD: Valhalla

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#22

Day 11: I’ve been feeling more fatigued lately, but I know it’s because of recon and I’m healing on all levels possible.

Had a realization about myself and why I’ve had trouble letting go of a connection that ended about a year and a half ago—I loved this person dearly, but the connection was obsessive and destructive on both of our parts. I’ve made such great progress in healing, but they always seem to pop up in my thoughts from time to time.

Growing up, I just wanted to be loved for who I was and I yearned for a love that wasn’t conditional—had a tough upbringing and an even tougher time discovering who I was, my aspirations, interests, etc.

Because I put so much emphasis on external sources for that love, I essentially gave myself and all the love I could muster up to others and that is exactly what I did in that connection.

I’m having a hard time letting go not because of the person or the connection we shared or who she was, but because it’s as if I’m letting go of a part of myself (if that makes sense?). I’m trying to detach from a part of my being that she seemed to carry, as I gave it to her (unbeknownst to me) in the first place.

So much to think about lol, hope everyone is doing okay!

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#23

Hello again!

Yes the exhaustion has started for me too. So I guess the euphoria stage is over? :frowning:

I am feeling all my neglect and every ache, as my body tries to wake up, feeling a drastic need for more exercise, sleep, water and sunlight. (so less emotional work this second week for me)

I have ordered some supplements for sleep and brain health, and have the wisdom to wisely budget and consider my choices as well as a I can (rather than spend coz I’m bored etc)

I think I understand, perhaps you feel connected to a need, more than to yourself, or your childhood self, let me know of the subliminal takes you the the realization you need!

#24

Your insight blew my mind…thank you truly! I’ve been reflecting on it since and it’s a game changer. Consumed with this need, not with myself.

I am starting to feel some of the exhaustion lift and have been more free flowing. Supplements are a great idea! We must take care of our physical vessel as we grow and evolve.

Also, my inclination towards esoteric concepts and new systems I’ve been wanting to try has been at an all time high—I’ve been very motivated to learn new things and can easily connect with them more.

How are things with you?

#25

Glad I was able to help!

I am going back up to 2-3 loops per day now, after I went through a really that harder period for a few days.

I think I am not noticing huge changes, I am more being called to reconsider my life, so I haven’t had the emotional strength to change my life but I am taking small organizational steps to move that way slowly (re-prioritizing). I cant let go off all my time wasting at once for, I would have nothing to do all day :stuck_out_tongue: so I must slowly rebuild :smiley:

I really feel I would benefit from the motivation (I think that’s stage 2?) but I understand I need to go through a but of pain and reflection. It seems a calm demeanour is the effect of the moment :slight_smile:

Hope your good!

#26

Hey! Hope you’ve been doing great :slight_smile:

Friday is my last day of this sub cycle and it’s been intense lol—I’ve been sick the past week, but also dealing with some recon I presume so I’ve just been resting.

DR gold is the heaviest title I’ve ever run, so this has been a great experience in seeing my limits and how I can better take care of myself. In the past, I’ve only run Love Bomb, RICH, Sex & Seduction X, and Limitless.

Excited to take a break during washout and prepare for my next cycle of subs—I may just stick to the current layout I have right now.

How have things been with you?

#27

I’m unsure how things have been, hard to self reflect.

I think I have a bit more peace in general, but I worry about my career and purpose more. I feel less fear in my body but I haven’t developed a lot of forward motion. I feel the pain and boredom of a unfulfilling life, which is good, better to feel it than be numb and I may be a bit better at being alone.

How long were you on stage 1 for? Excited for news of stage 2!

#28

Hi all, apologies for the lack of updates but hope everyone has been doing exceptionally well and tackling their goals!

I finished my second cycle of DRG Stage 1 yesterday and am now in the resting period. I am looking forward to my first listen of DRG Stage 2 very soon, as I’m excited to tackle any limitations and incinerate any and all obstacles that may be in my path.

I’ve been dealing with some health issues, so I haven’t had much time or energy to update. However, I have been consistent with my listening period and have resulted to using 3 minute loops, as they help with recon and seem to lessen any physical manifestations of recon symptoms.

I’ve seen quite a change in myself, as I advocate for my wellbeing and my boundaries moreso than ever and am able to express my thoughts and opinions with ease. I have been able to let go of some things that no longer serve me and am now able to pinpoint patterns or habits that I innately carry in my heart/soul—I’ve become cognizant of their existence and am able to put a stop to it before any engagement, which is awesome!

For DRG Stage 2, my intention is to further check-in with myself and see where the subliminal takes me. What unconscious beliefs and limitations do I still embody? How do these beliefs and limitations affect my external reality and how I perceive the world around me? What can I do to change that? How can I let go of this proverbial Achilles heel?

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#29

Hi guys, hope you’ve had a lovely September so far! I’m getting quite excited for the colder temperature and holidays :slight_smile:

Since my last post, I started DRG S2 and loved every second of it—I’ve noticed more growth in terms of my desires, goals, and perception of the past (I.e. making peace with certain situations and letting go of the need for revenge). I’ve become more peaceful and have strengthened my faith in myself, my spirituality, and just the universe in totality. I had stacked DRG ST2 with Love bomb and Sex & Seduction once more.

Now, I’m on my second cycle of DRG ST2 and started my listen tonight (5 day washout prior). Per my last comments, I plan to run each stage of the subliminal for roughly 2 listening cycles—as of right now, I’m satisfied with this plan as I’ve experienced the change I was hoping for and more and am also content with the rest/amount of recon that has occurred (my loops right now are for roughly 3 minutes long). This time around, I switched out Sex & Seduction and have begun my first listen of Wanted Black!

Words cannot describe my excitement for WB, as I’ve heard such great things from the community and the objectives align with my goals/desires. Although I am a woman, I typically identify more with my masculine characteristics/traits and am hoping to garner the attention of other women as well (I don’t think I’ve seen this similar of a situation on threads, so I’ll keep anyone who’s interested or can relate updated!). WB contains some scripting directed towards polyamory, but my intention is to consciously guide myself past that—apart from some conversation and flirting that I may have with multiple women, I prefer monogamous relationships :slight_smile:. Thanks for reading along and I hope you have an amazing week ahead!!

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