So, here I am ready to embark on such a journey.
Been taking a week off subs, chilling out on this days at home. But as time went on, curiosity reigned me over. As I had intense moments of reflection, many of the things in my path are for a reason.
In this case, after finishing a few tasks, got myself a copy of Dragon Reborn.
These moments of reflections, were not easy.
The planning of current goals wasn’t any easier too.
But in a fit of irony, the more I run of it.
The more it comes back. I pride myself of always improve any way I can.
Which turns me to another point. Why haven’t I take proper healing?
A proper journey of self-healing? A path of freeing myself of even more burden.
The journey of self-discovery. What’s my true potential? What’s my true self?
My true, pure, self?
Who am I, who doesn’t know his history well?
Why did I always ran away from it? From this important question, and healing?
I have the opportunity to finally heal myself, in all three directions.
I shouldn’t let this opportunity pass. I’m not listening to my ego in this matter.
That voice telling me to not embark on this.
Doesn’t matter. I feel this is the correct choice.
The true, pure, painful choice. Healing ain’t easy.
But neither is living everyday with insecurity,
With the world situation around, can’t do the things I wanted to explore for a first time.
However, fate brings me to this moment. To use the time wisely, and to become the man I’ve always desired. There will be dark days, ahead. But I plan to journal constantly, document my experience with the mightiest sub for healing.
And to answer a difficult question for myself.
Why? Why is that you’re too afraid to pursue what you want?
Why is it that I can’t to the things I’ve wanted?
Just why?
It’s time to embark on this road of Discovery. There’s too many questions to uncover and solve.
But after this, I’ll reborn into my true self.
I prefer now to make myself look as a fool at times, rather to shut down my real voice for the sake of public opinion.
In the end, it will be all worth it. The time has come, for me to reborn again.
Tomorrow night, my own journey starts.
This is my side of the story.