Dear Mysterious Road

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I feel like I’m no longer like the person I use to be a few months ago. I enjoy changing subs to facilitate the short or long term upcomings.

I ran one loop of Heartsong yesterday and I wanted to keep track of some of the things that I noticed this sub did. This sub brought to the forefront all these emotions and I felt the emotions in such a powerful way. Makes me think that I should run Heartsong along with Renaissance Man. I’ve been on a roller coaster of emotions since I ran it yesterday afternoon.

I felt that familiar feeling of something missing in my life for a few hours after I listened to it. I had a feeling about that guy who keeps getting manifested whenever I run the sub, and I learned why all those synchronicities revolve around him. I hadn’t felt a thing about that person in a long time, so I know that the sub brought that up. Do I understand it? No. I see that person as a small part of something that happened in my past, but I am now open to letting this sub run its course regarding him.

There is a guy I met about two weeks ago who I like. I know that he has a strong attraction to me, and I just thought that he was gorgeous and really hot, but I realize now that I am deeply attracted to him. This makes me very uncomfortable since we’re total opposites. That explains the connection, but I really don’t want to mess things up with this one.

I woke up this morning feeling really different. I even changed my plans because of this feeling. I felt in love but like I was missing someone, probably that new guy I like. I ended up getting more rest and took a short nap.

When I woke up, I was having deep feelings of gratitude about something that happened and I had such great appreciation for the arts. It was such an overwhelming, intense feeling, I almost cried. I know this all probably sounds over the top, but all these feelings were so intense. I normally don’t feel this deeply.

Then I got hit with constant feelings of afterglow for about six hours nonstop. I haven’t even had sex recently. I think I had these afterglow feelings all day, but didn’t realize it since I was experiencing all these other feelings. I’m still feeling that, so I don’t know how long these afterglow feelings will last. I really want to do a love meditation next time I run this sub.

One of my favorite songs is Symbolism by Electro-Light. I almost always feel so much love when I play that song. I listened to Symbolism 2 for the first time today, and oh wow, what a crazy amazing experience that was. The feelings of afterglow with the feelings of love for that song just got so magnified.

Someone who I didn’t want to have anything to do with came by my house today. I don’t know who reads these so I won’t go into details. I was surprisingly loving and very kind to her.

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wow what a journey, I like reading your post. the way you describe what you experience draws me in. Thank you for sharing

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Thanks, aaa, I’m glad that you enjoyed reading my post.

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I listened to one loop of Heartsong along with one loop of Seductress and EF. I had interesting dreams that are showing me that I need to develop better self esteem. I began singing and surprised myself to hear myself sing with so much emotion. I think that’s Hearstong.

Yesterday, I felt that there was something developing with that new guy that I like. I felt as if I was moving forward in a good direction with him. Then today, I realized that he is not for me. Bummer considering that he’s so good looking. Oh well, plenty of fish in the sea. I just have to keep my distance now and I have learned that I need to smile at people more. I didn’t do something to mess this up. The guy just seems a little unstable.

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I kept my distance from that guy and I actually missed seeing him yesterday. Probably just because he’s so good looking. lol I went out to eat and I felt so much love just out of nowhere. This love caused me to treat people really differently in the restaurant This man and I hit it off (in a non sexual way) and we almost treated each other like family.

I ran Seductress and Heartsong last night. I saw that “hot” guy, and well it seems that Heartsong is at it again. Seeing the hot guy was like seeing some plain dude I had zero interest in. Same thing for another guy I kind of liked. It was as if there was no interest at all from me to them. This was something that I noticed over the summer when I was running Heartsong. I had no interest at all in guys whom I would have normally at least paid some level of attention to.

My partner has been exposed to Seductress when I listen to it for months now. He finally began to take care of his skin about 3 to 4 weeks ago. He’s looking a lot better and gets a lot of freebies, mostly extra food. There were two waitresses who actually were arguing over who was going to bring his food to him, because they both wanted to bring him his dinner! lol I think that he finally enjoys being treated as attractive and agreed to listen to Wanted. I had tried to get him to listen to it a few months ago, but he didn’t want it. He still hasn’t listened to Wanted, but it’s just a matter of time.

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He took the plunge last night and tried Wanted. The physical shifting is real. At one point, I saw him from a distance and had to question if it was really him. I mean, I knew that it was him, but he looks almost like a different person. Scratch that, I’ll be completely honest. I knew that it was him, but he DID look like a different person from that distance. Like a much better looking brother who closely resembles him. This has never happened with him before. I was proud of him and I am not easily impressed. He got two loops in, so I hope that he will continue to look even better.

What I find really interesting is that he wouldn’t stop complimenting me. He kept telling me how beautiful I looked. He also did things to not mess up our time together. He normally tries not to mess up with his rudeness, but usually does anyway. The way he treated me today was on a whole new level of intelligence

I forgot to mention something that I think is really important. I stayed focused on him because I felt happy being with him. My mind did drift when he wasn’t around, but this time I caught myself and didn’t want to think about other guys.

A few days ago, I felt all this love seemingly for no reason at all. I felt all this happiness just out of nowhere today. It just hit me like a whirlwind.

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I listened to 3 loops of Rich last night. I was going for 4 loops, but I woke up and I knew that my mind had had enough and it was time to stop playing it.

I played one loop of my new ultima based on Libertine. I fell back asleep and I had a dream where I saw myself with these beautiful very full lips. I also had a dream I was talking about something sexy to some guy I know. I would get these images pop into my mind when I first started listening to Libertine Qv2. One of the guys I saw actually got manifested. He actually looked like the guy on the cover of Libertine with sideburns. I only saw him briefly for a few seconds. We were both wearing masks, but I already knew what he looked like without it. He was on his way somewhere but he stopped to stand in front of me and he stared at me for about five seconds as if he wanted to remember that image in his memory. I should have said something to him, but all these people were staring at us and it didn’t seem right at the time.

I listened to Heartsong yesterday and I feel really happy today. I keep having these unusual moments when I feel so good just out of nowhere. I was really touched by Wiser by Old man Canyon.

My partner is losing fat without even working out. He’s slim and fit to begin with but is now losing fat, apparently just from playing Wanted.

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From what I see here as the post dates. That’s in 2 days?! Your partner is losing fat in 2 days!! Wow.

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He listened to it for the first time on Monday night. I noticed the physical shifting on his face on Tuesday. Then last night (Wed), I noticed that he had lost fat on his body when I hugged him. He notices the fat reduction also. He used to eat candy everyday, adding up to a few pounds of candy per week. He gave it up a few months ago and saw a reduction of fat, but the fat reduction stopped months ago. Now all of a sudden he lost fat on his stomach this week, and looks so much better in his clothes.