hey there !
snap …cause I was just doing a joint and walking inside my house and thinking …its all I do at night lol …among many things …zzz
So yeah …Had a major EPIPHANY on how to TWIST and BEND the current suppressed in 2-3 areas of my life …
3 rd is $$$$$$$$ related
1 and 2 family dynamics and relationship dynamics …
Maybe the shit is hitting me right now hahahah
I heal opsss Freuds slip …I meant I feel! like taking BOLD DECISIONS AFTER REALIZING WHATS WAS BEING PLAYED IN TEH BACKGROUND WHEN I WAS NOT THERE BASICALLY (sounds weird eh ? the way I put it …well I spent a good deal of 25 years being GONE …studying hardcore stuff.inventing shit ,studying more and more and more .till I “fried” my brain .overload …
so I took a nice looooong sabatical and had no fucking idea that I had to deal with mundane shit to this fucked up level,
realized I was surounded by weirdos …so I decided to go full HERMIT for …hm 40 days now…
Where i used to talk and talk for hours per day (before I had this “breakdown” ) now I speak talk like 5-10 minutes per day …groceries and stuff .deliveries /…
My throat chakra wich is naturally very strong …and I wear this bad ass pendant wich is …out of this world is like …hmmm "balanced " ?
I dont feel like talking hahahah
Is that bad ?
Literally …my "dream " would be to be in a place where I would not talk for day and shit …
with my other half ofc …alone would be too extreme …for extended periods of times
So maybe thats what I get from Emperor…
reflecting in my real wants ,needs ,dreams .refining my dreams -goals ?
I need to journal .damn forgot …will …
thanks for the feedback 