I would suggest to journal privately and dig deep as to why you deny it.
Do you feel you can utilize your leadership skills to fulfill yourself and others. Do you find value in those skills?
One thing I did last week was truthfully sit down and write in my journal:
my likes
my dislikes
my strengths and weaknesses
what i want out of life
what i want to change about myself
how i want to be remembered
I couldn’t believe what a relief it felt to be honest with myself and stop avoiding myself.
This may sound weird but, go in the bathroom, look in the mirror and take all of your clothes off… completely butt-naked without shame, and come as you are 100%, and read that list as you look in the mirror.
Be 100% straight forward with you, cry if you have to… spill out your feelings, and see how you feel
Thank you. Funnily enough I have done that exact thing before being butt naked. A thing that I have had lately is that after a year and a half of withdrawing from society, is that I have to fight the urge of just not engaging with society as a whole. Because when you find that calmness, that stillness that is you without distractions, you feel yourself going insane going back into that stress of everyday life…
Lol, that’s some powerful shit… which is why it’s effective.
It’s the strong intention and willingness that you are communicating to the subconscious mind.
Most people live everyday quite typically and through a baseline state.
Their thoughts, inner mutterings and intentions are pretty uninteresting and just flying everywhere.
Their subconscious mind is sitting in a chair smoking a cigar and just watching them, not really taking anything they say seriously.
Just casually recording everything.
When people do non-typical things like what you described…
It’s not the act itself, but the extremely powerful and serious intention.
The act is just the medium through which you’re creating and anchoring that intention, and that can sometimes have literal component to the nature of the intention… (Taking off your clothes and being naked for example.)
You shifted into a state where you’re operating from a different frame, a frame that captures the attention of the higher parts of your mind.
It’s like somebody hit a gong. Their subconscious mind drops the cigar and stands up, paying extremely close attention to exactly what it is that they are doing.
“Okay, now he’s serious”.
This is an ancient mechanism and method of communication that’s existed with us forever as a catalyst for transformation, change and turning points in life/self. People do this sometimes and often don’t even recognize it.
The most important thing to extract out of this, is that it’s YOU deciding. It’s YOUR intention. You are seriously powerful.
The universe, your mind, your reality and your subconscious etc is all paying attention your intention and can show you the ways. It can show you the doors to anything.
Anyways, I’m just explaining why what you described is effective, lol. Sounds like you’re getting great results, keep it going.
Honest introspective journaling is vital, especially on ZP
I just now remembered, but yesterday I also got another raise from my job. It’s an increase of $2 starting in May. It’s weird that I forgot because I was so excited to share ir here. That really made me happy
A lot of ideas and things I want have been coming to me in different forms. Recently, I found a way to get in touch with loads of spotify playlist curators and I’ve been documenting tons of email addresses to contact this week.
I started over eating again, and falling into bad habits but I’m going to keep trying and stay consistent at exercise and wise eating
I just came home from the dentist and I feel embarassed. The dentist lady had to do an x-ray on my mouth and it was hard for me to bite down on the thing and it took me atleast 10 minutes. She was so fake-nice to me and she was treating me like I was a little baby, and because I’m on the autism spectrum, it happens quite often.
She was laughing with her co-workers and making fun of my inability to bite down on the x-ray device. I kept gagging and it was challenging.
When I found the chance, I walked out of the dentist and went home. This types of stuff makes me sad, and makes me feel like I can never have a girlfriend, or be a responsible independent adult. I wanted to look her in her eyes so bad, and tell her “I’m a man. I’m not a little boy, and I’m not “slow” or dumb. I’m on the spectrum and have anxiety and I care what people think, but this doesn’t mean that I’m weak or a baby. Stop being fake-nice to me, and treating me like I’m less than.” But, I sat there sad and emotional, waiting for my chance to leave
Just looking back at the past months on my SubClub journey, I’ve realized how amazing a lot of my dreams were. The dreams alone from the products are amazing. I’m starting to recall details from quie a bit of dreams
I am deeply sick of being a fat man. It’s making me so mad inside. I’m filled with anger and I brought it upon myself.
Throughout my life, I was always in sports such as basketball and football, and in my freshman year of college, I went in incredibly deep depression due to my social anxiety. I was so afraid of people that I would hide in my dorm, pee in water bottles, avoid showers for months, and masturbate every night to cope with not being able to talk to any of the girls on the campus.
All throughout the school year, I never went to the cafeteria which was apart of my tuition, and I spent all my summer job money on pizza, soda, chicken, and vending machine snacks in my dorm. By the second semester, I started missing classes, and I hid in my dorm and gained 80 pounds.
I’ve been trying to remove fat since I was 19. I’m now 24, and I’ve been gaining and losing weight every year.
I was never fat. I was always athletic and in shape. I’m sick of being a fat person.
Omg, I think Emperor Fitness is helping eat less food. I couldn’t even finish my food. I just can’t pull myself to eat, and I like that.
I like this feeling. This is how it is for skinny people. You just can’t pull yourself to finish the food. I don’t know what term this is called, but I hope this keeps going
It feels so good when you have high sexual energy and you finish a workout. I can feel heat all over my body. Especially my chest, it feels so warm and pumped.
I need to stop lying to myself. I love donuts. I love coping with food. It’s okay to be ugly and fat. If eating donuts is my way to cope with not having any women in my life, that’s okay.
I’m not even a cool guy that can make women feel good anyway. I’m very much a to myself person, and I don’t even like being around people. Plus, I can’t stand nail polish and lipstick, so I wouldn’t even be attracted to women who wear that stuff anyway.
I’m just going to stick to myself and do what makes me feel good. I’m tired of thinking of women
It’s really cool to see. Because at this point, whenever @Calm is down on himself, I just smile knowing that he’s going to come out of with more knowledge and self love than he had before.
@Calm, RV’s post made me wonder, is there anything that triggers the darkness?
What is it that starts these downward spirals of self hate for you? Is it an instance of social rejection in your personal life? A comment from family? Looking in the mirror and not liking what you see?
This is my farewell to the SubClub community, and I’m wishing everyone hear much success. Thank you everyone who engaged with me and gave me advice, and thanks Saint and Fire for making cool products.
What I’m about to say is logical, straight-forward, and hopefully to others, easily understandable.
I’ve been having a strong intuition for a month to quit SubClub subs. I think it would make more sense to study, experiment, and create my own Subliminals just for me. I find it too much of a risk to put my Subconscious in someone else’s hands to improve my life. I know me more than anyone does, and with the limitless tools and resources to learn and experiment myself, I’d find it more beneficial to make my own subliminals for me.
Ask yourself, what’s stopping you from making your own Subliminals?
I’m willing to go through trials and tribulations to make my own effective subliminals. I’m on edge with th belief that results produced by subliminals are permanent, for the simple fact that an aura generated by a script will fade after listening. In regards to “installs” and beliefs, that is considerable for a debate of substance.
It won’t matter how long it takes for me to create my own products that are suitable for me. My own subliminals certainly don’t have to be as powerful as SubClub’s, because on my journey of experimentation, I can always fine-tune my own scripts to best suit me in areas I lack. Constant studying and experimentation is literally the key to making effective subliminals.
I already have 8+ years of experience in sound engineering, so the mixing and masking of audio is already quite fun to me. I actually genuinely enjoyed making my own subs, and tweaking them often to see what worked best for me also.
I wish much success to everyone, I genuinely do. Saint and Fire, please don’t harm me. I really do come in peace, I just want my mind to stay safe.
