Building castles in the skies (Journal)

[Athanaxos]

Starting a new journal here, after a long hiatus on the forum. My last journal entry here was a whole year ago. Welp. But- I simply didn’t have the energy to maintain an online journal, althought that would probably have been beneficial in the long run…

@Athanaxos

But The Fool, is no fool. It bears meaning of embarking on an adventure and sojourn, with a bit of naive optimism perhaps, not knowing what lies ahead, but facing the unknown nonetheless. But what it also means, for an older Fool, is that we’ve already been here before: we’ve completed one ‘fools journey through the major arcana’. A journey that ‘ends’ with the World card, where the Fool reenters the world, older and possibly (hopefully) a bit wiser. But the journey doesn’t end here, as the Fool soon embarks on another fool’s/hero’s journey of growth and adventure once more through the major arcana. Full circle.

So I figured it was time to start again, especially as I am embarking on a new journey. Last year plunged me into the depth of my own underworld. At the end of the year I had to do a 4 week long washout. My mind was simply exhausted. After that, running Dragon Reborn: Regeneration and Inner Circle: Brotherhood was a welcome change of pace, and stacked with Emperor: Command & Conq… eehh… Crown & Capital… I felt invigorated again. And looking backwards I could see that I was in the end, indeed victorious. The gambits had paid off.

And now, stacking Emperor: Crown & Capaital, Limitless: RAIKOV, and of course R.I.C.H. Trader, this time it will be a journey of gold.

I will use this journal both as a projection of the future, and also as a reflection of the past.

@Athanaxos

“He knows exactly where he’s going and exactly how he isn’t getting there.”

The Fool has come full circle. Again.

And it’s time to build some castles in the skies.

[Philemon]

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And now, stacking Emperor: Crown & Capaital, Limitless: RAIKOV, and of course R.I.C.H. Trader, this time it will be a journey of gold.

Will be following closely. Plan to do this stack myself, and even potentially a custom with all 3 cores.

[Athanaxos]

Alright. Started yesterday with my experimental “dual-core” major name embedded - with ECC and RoD. 15 seconds. Directly after I got a kind of sharp and different kind of headache than I am used to, but it quickly passed after just a minute or two. No recon that I can identify so far. Tiredness today is the usual level, and I managed my sleep poorly yesterday so…

Anyway.

I opted to include my “full first name” which is a double name (even though I only use one), and reading @Parsifal 's thread about including middle name in name embedded I wanted to give it a try in my own way.

It’s not a name I am using per se, but it IS a name I deeply identify with as me and my siblings were all given dubble names, with names taken from our grandparents. It’s a unique signifyer in that regard, and I feel it resonate. I think it’ll hit deep. It’ll be interesting to see what happens.

I am stacking this with RAIKOV and RICHT (major titles), also doing 15 sec for now.

I will also mention that prior this I ran 5 weeks of DRegen and ICBro, and then added ECC when it was realeased and that just blew me out of the water. Those three were super smooth to stack together, even at full duration.

Maybe I jumped too fast on this ‘dual-core’ situation, but I it’ll pay off, one way or another.

Might be concidering a full custom with ECC and RoD, with Clear Sight and Timeless Gravitas and S: Subconscious Mastery and Khronos Key. Could be fun. We’ll see how this pans out…

For now, the micro-loopage continues.

[Athanaxos]

Interesting. Last night I had two separate dreams, where I fought a tyrant king. The first I defeated through cunning (by ”use” of a time machine (which was my car btw lol)), and the second through prowess in close combat. Very curious. Is this related to my E:C&C + RoD NE ? Either way, I won and thats all that matters

Also, used Confer AI a bit to talk about my natal chart, and I realized that Pluto holds absolute influence over my entire astrological configuration through something called dispositorship. And by absolute influence i mean the Scorpio-y kind; discrete, and through connections- not force. I explored these links and connections and all of them terminated with Pluto, so thats interesting.

For example: I have four planets in my 1st house - all of them influenced by Pluto via dispositorship. And then both my Descendant AND moon sign - the same thing. And Chiron the same, and so on…

All of it is filtered through Pluto, and thus through my Scorpio cycle… which… explain a thing or two…

Key takeaway anyway is that my karmic path is to ’be myself’ and my karmic weight is to complete my scorpio cycle which is also to heal my relationship wounds which is done by speaking my truth, which is what will enable karmic growth that leads to my karmic path… to be myself.

Basically…

There is no difference between who I am, and what I must do.

What a stellar realization, indeed.

Also, who would have thought that my ’win condition’ in life would be to just ’be myself’ lol thats ironic on so many levels, but at the same time low key makes a whole damn lot of sense…