I have been suffering from feelings of self hatred, guilt, loneliness etc. for over one year now, due to a messy break up with my ex-girlfriend. I feel like everything I have built up and developed within myself has been lost during lock down. I need to be realistic with myself and where I am, and build myself back up.
I have come to the realisation that I am a very emotional man, leaning toward the passive/feminine aspect. This means I like to be creative, and has led me to listen to programs such as Stark / Renaissance Man / Ultimate Artist. These are subs play to my strengths, but when I used Renaissance Man I had the epiphany that the sub’s goal of making me feel more deeply was only causing me increased pain. I realised I need to start addressing my weaknesses, instead of using subs which cater to my own ego and what I believe to be my identity as a creative/artistic “alpha”.
My biggest hindrance is a lack of drive and self belief. Procrastination. Inability to take action. I’ve decided it’s time to address these weaknesses with the following sub:
Cores
Ascension Core - Alpha (assertiveness, self belief, confidence, internal strength)
Daredevil Core - Social (carefree, less serious, social abilities)
Sex Mastery Core - Sexual (dissolve faulty programming around sex)
Alpha
Alpha of Alpha
Emperor’s Voice
Godlike Masculinity
Power Unleashed
ARES
Social
Dragon Tongue
Transcendental Connection
Chosen of Venus
Sexual
Physicality Shifter - Sexiness
Sexiness Unbound
Prevent PE
Focused Arousal
Misc.
Deep Sleep
Productivity Unleashed
Carpe Diem Ascended
Sacred Words
Ultimate Writer
This is to build my foundation as an alpha male with social skills. To become more out going and confident. To be more social and flirtatious with women. To become more productive in my working environment (marketing). And most of all, to stop focusing on how I’m feeling and to take action regardless.
My immediate goal is to gain employment. I need to develop the self-belief and confidence to do well in an interview. I am also worried about being able to cope with my job responsibilities as it has been a year now since I was employed full time. I often go through periods, like I am right now, where my brain functions sub-optimally due to feeling “depressed”, and it concerns me that I will feel like this whilst at work causing me to fuck up. Hopefully the sub will help me overcome these limiting beliefs/fears.
When I’m at a point where I feel I am relatively alpha, I will consider moving onto Khan. This will probably be after Q+ and name-embedded main titles are introduced.