To me you can’t accept recon or negative emotions because you want to get rid of them. That’s actually a different form of resistance.
To me recon is part of growth, and to accept it means let it do its thing. The reason sitting doing nothing is good, is that you don’t interfere with the process by escapism.
Could be the reason why sleep works, because you’re not in the way lol
Sleep is also where we usually consolidate our experiences and memories etc
I’m not sure how to just accept it though
yeah but the peculiar thing is that naps don’t do anything recon-wise for me, only night sleep works
Give this a try
A good meal - fuel, break and sensory experience
Reflection / doing nothing - let the thoughts do their thing
Self forgiveness - acceptance, permission to let go
A good night’s sleep - rest. Recovery. The subconscious works through the issues
You and me both mate. I’ve learned alot about the process with DRReg, but it’s easier said than done. But that’s the way for me. It’s hard for me and easier for others. But this is where my growth is currently.
To me (my current understanding) it means you don’t want to get rid of it. Imagine society and social conditioning is saying ” recon is awesome, recon is what you want to feel. Recon is the shit!” You see actors and movie stars in recon, they get celebrated for it. Imagine that. How would that change how you feel about recon? How would recon feel like if that’s the case? You would probably be less resistant to it and more accepting. You would probably be more compassionate.
In this business of growth, recon and discomfort is part of it. It will not disappear, but hopefully my experience of it changes. It’s usually the resistance that’s the problem.
GLM/LB and DRReg is doing wonders for me in this journey.
I am doing all of that, except the “acceptance” thing. As I said, only night sleep does something noticeable
sure, but the problem is that I literally can’t work during it. I’d be completely fine with just feeling bad but I’m not fine with being unable to focus on anything - doesn’t matter if it’s something I enjoy or not. It feels as if my subconscious is trying to find something to resolve recon but is unable to do so, and I’m just sitting there with scattered attention lol
That’s pretty much the main reason why I want to do this:
Copying this here as a reminder for future self
The recon being there still is normal.
It can decrease the recon, but that’s not entirely the point.
It’s about detaching from it; to just observe.
Let it come, let it be, let it go.
The recon will still exist, but by practising this, you’re not gonna suffer as much because of it.
From there, you can start gaining better perspectives & clarity as to what to do with the recon.
It comes through practice.
Acceptance doesn’t just come, it needs to be practised.
Precisely.
You can accept that your car is breaking down every few kilometers and not suffer from it, but it doesn’t change the fact that the car ain’t going any faster.
The good thing about sub is that, even with the breaking down (recon), you will eventually get to a better outcome.
But the fact that the car is barely usable still stands.
That’s where microlooping comes into the picture.
This is also the reason I microloop the hell out of the subs I use; I simply get more consistent results progressing this way without having to worry as much about the car breaking down. Some might argue that my car is slower, but I care more about the stability of progressing what I do in real life than progressing the length of exposure.
You’ve read my journal, I think you don’t need to be as slow as I do, but listening to less is better overall.
The 15s for an entire cycle you do is reasonable, though I think you can try to probe higher exposure more often than every 2 months.
Yeah I feel ya. So the best way is to add rest days and decrease exposure so it’s manageable and doesn’t affect other life priorities too much.
That’s what I do too, as it can be disruptive and I gotta take it at a pace I can handle. Otherwise I would just run 15 minutes and chill in a cave somewhere until it’s resolved lol.
I like these analogies, thank you!
I’m microlooping as well, I was just a bit too eager to start new stack 
Of course I’m taking responsibility for that and resting now
But even so, I often have similar recon just by adding 1s to exposure. That was with GLM + EOG stack, I could do 20s with no recon or very little of it, and 21s would kick my ass lol. I did eventually managed to clear the blocks that standed in the way and up my exposure to 3+ min but I’m pretty sure that it would be more productive to go slower and “consolidate” current duration before increasing it, because I was in recon for most of the time and was missing out a lot on potential productivity and action taking
So yeah, this time I’m taking it slow, even if it’s “excessively” slow. Not like the work stops once recon is cleared
Also, it seems to be about the correct time frame for me currently because I was able to up Regeneration to 30s roughly after 45 days or so. I think 1 full cycle is good enough timeframe and gives some structure rather than just doing it every once in a while and then spending a few days in recon lol
Seeing vivid dreams last two nights, the same topic - apocalypsis. But overall dreams are positive
For some reason, many people report apocalyptic dreams on wealth titles
It’s also 4th day of washout and I’m feeling great today
@Niles, aside from recon reduction and insights from sitting and doing nothing, have you noticed an increase in overall productivity and life enjoyment by learning to tolerate boredom better?
5th day of washout and feeling amazing now. Seeing weird dreams and releasing some negative thoughts/traumatic memories. I guess it’s Regeneration bloom but who knows
Day 1 - C&C + RICH (15s)
When I’m overexposing, I feel recon, and when I’m at proper exposure levels, recon becomes more cognitive
Today was a good day, focus was high, productivity was high. Still, there’s a lot of things that need to be reconciled and I can’t logically resolve them at the moment - there’s not enough data for me.
Great things take time and effort
not sure if I’m in recon or just exhausted from work week. I think mixture of both
it’s been a very productive work week though.
Regeneration actually healed me from this perma-grind-no-rest-days type of thing. I’d usually be very agitated on my rest days, always pushing and trying to cram in more work/studying/whatever to move forward but during my Regeneration run, I realized that I am actually way more productive if I give myself a few rest days per week
I’m not thinking about work or doing any (unless enthusiasm is very high for it), just focusing on recovery, both physical and mental. Walks, reading books, immersing in target language more, etc.
Khan Black is an OP sub though, gives me so much energy to fuel my work and hobbies - and that’s just ST1 at 15s lol. Very curious about ST3 effects in the future
Having a bit of recon from ECC. Not sure what exactly is the issue that is being processed but the recon I get is the desire to change it
Nothing unmanageable and I’m having 2 rest days so I guess it will sort itself out.
In new instructions, it’s recommended to insert occasional rest days with 3 title stacks. I don’t really trust myself to figure out when it’s time to add a rest days and I also want subs to occupy as little of my conscious mental space as possible so I just decided to simplify it and use MWF schedule. Been using that since new instructions came out
actually thinking about skipping Monday as well and continuing from Wednesday. I’m doing a lot of hard things currently and I’m not sure if my nervous system is catching up well, so I better focus on integrating subs more, rather than listening more
yep, decided to skip Monday listening session. Still dealing with conscious recon*
*I’m going to use a differentiations for my own recon, doesn’t mean it’s universal, it just works for me specifically:
Conscious recon: consciously dealing with issues/fears/traumas/whatever. That means consciously contemplating my values, goals, ways to achieve them, etc., working through issues with logic
Visceral recon: for me it’s mostly related to exhaustion of nervous system, I think. Just feeling negative and exhausted, and can’t focus, and can’t pinpoint the issue that is being reconciled
Integration. Take a look at this – it’s very important (the section on integration):