The Renaissance Khan Journal

Journals - Major Programs
#22

Day 6 - Rest Day

Didn’t get much sleep because of my son, definitely feeling the anger today.
Good we’re on the rest days now, I feel like a lot of things need to be reconciled.
If the anger sticks, I’ll add another day without subs to it.

I am horny AF, but not like needy. Just very sexual. Works with the wife to say the least. More than it already did.

I also definitely feel the dominance, I am starting to feel like a Khan. I notice parts of the Emperor Style coming through. I.e. anything that doesn’t align with my goals is annoying and needs to go.

Seems like TB is totally working through something there since that anger came up so quickly.
Will definitely get DR after I’ve been on Khan for a while to work through anything that’s left.

#23

Day 7 - Rest Day (Easter Sunday)

Sleep was better and the anger is slowly fading.
Being replaced by true calmness and power.

However, I do realize there is still a lot to work through. At least it seems so. Dreams are weird as shit, still. But I like it, means there is progress happening.

More and more I am having a clearer focus on my goals, and am throwing everything out that doesn’t contribute. Almost ruthlessly I am aiming to build an empire, no matter the cost. Crazy feeling, but also exciting.

Looking forward to be on the subs again, but will decide after tonight if I start tomorrow, or add another rest day.

#24

Day 8 - Another rest day

I am starting to realize that recon for me manifests in anger. A general angry mood.
Already had effects, big fight with the wife (not a big deal).

This is why I decided to add another rest day, to work through this properly. Sadly, I don’t get enough sleep right now which definitely prolongs the process.

Still crazy to see how TB TRULY digs deep. Love it!

I was thinking of running a loop of Rebirth Ultima today to ease into the recon and/or help get it to work. I saw in another thread here: STARKhan Journal

that he runs RebirthU ALWAYS before Khan to help set it up better.
I might add that as well.

Either way, Khan definitely works in Ultrasonic. Was thinking about my technical setup, but considering the recon, don’t need to worry about that anymore.

Also, I am more focused on my own worth. I am hard with dealing people that don’t add to my life or want things from me that go against my goals. This already ended up in “issues” with them, but I feel AMAZING for following my dreams and my life.

EDIT:
RICH still keeps manifesting left and right. New opportunities for business, random increase in product purchases, etc. It IS definitely noticable.

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#25

Random notions:

It is incredible how much there was left unchecked in myself. It is surfacing now.
I cannot consciously recall things right now. It’s not like I have flashing images before my eyes, but I DO notice things being worked through.

It is a FANTASTIC feeling, although I am angry and irritated.
Hard to describe but I just know that at the end of the tunnel, there is light, and I will come out a GREAT KHAN at the end.

However, anyone who is doing Khan I would definitely recommend restraining yourself from making far-reaching decisions while on ST1. Too much emotional turmoil, not enough logic reasoning.
Especially since you don’t know yet who you want to become.

Maybe it’s the anger or the feeling towards success, but ENERGY is WAY up, despite feeling tired.
Turbulent times!

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#26

I’m asking you nip any anger or reconciliation as soon as possible, especially if you are having big arguing with your wife even if you think it’s not a big deal.

Fewer loops.
More rest days.

Books by John Gottman.

#27

Damm really needed this, fam is driving me crazy mad rn

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#28

Thanks for the heads-up but it’s all good!

We already “reconciled” after her apologizing in a bunny costume. It’s Easter, right?

I have her on lock, don’t worry about it.
Negative emotions work just as well as positive ones! Just never bore a woman! Worst thing you can do!

Apart from that, today was overall much better for the rest of the day.

Tomorrow I will start with RebirthU and one Loop of Khan and RICH.
Maybe I add another rest day midweek. We’ll see.

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#29

Also, sex is different, yes!

Much more DOMINANT and POWERFUL. But it’s not to please her even though I notice her enjoying it. I enjoy it that way!

#30

Well said.
I suggest you read Unchained Alpha Male 2.0
Really taught me a lot about women and how they are so different from men on all levels. I started incorporating some aspect from that book and it works like a charm.

#31

I am well versed in that realm, I coach people on this lol

But thanks for the recommendation!

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#32

Any good reads for me ?
Dominance and seduction
Alpha male

#33

Alpha Male:
Discovering your dark side of POWER: The Nine Laws by Ivan Throne.
FANTASTIC book, but not an easy read! You will, however, discover what it means to be a man in a dark world.

Dominance and seduction:
I suppose you have already read “The Rational Male” (the red one)?
If not, read it OBJECTIVELY. It is a COLD look at the female sexual dynamic. Many men turned a bit bitter from it. But it helps to COLDLY understand HOW women decide to have sex.

If you want to add spirituality to it: The Way of the Superior Man by David Deida

For seduction a POWERFUL classic is “The Mystery Method”

Also, “My secret garden” by Nancy Friday if you want to finally ACCEPT how sexual women truly are. Although it can sometimes be disturbing. In this book, Nancy shares the sexual FANTASIES of women themselves. That was a crazy read.

That should set you up :wink:

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#34

Thank you very much

#35

The cognitive dissonance with My Secret Garden can drive a bluepilled man insane

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#36

Absolutely.

This is also a recurring theme in the book, that the men who were told these fantasies by their women are “weirded out” and “mad”

Because they have like rape fantasies or gangbang fantasies and all that.

An insecure man will become insane by this, yes.
A powerful man will know how to use this knowledge :wink:

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#37

Ya it is crazy when women tell their fantasies and wow it is not what you expect lol. But how they actually act during sex and just in general you would never think that is how the actually wanted “it” lol.
Dated plenty of women with crazy as fuck fantasies but were nothing like that when actually having sex lol.

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#38

That is on you to get it out of them.

Generally, if they are comfortable enough with you and you are a dominant, powerful, successful man, they do all kinds of weird shit. Even though they say differently.

Watch actions, not words :wink:

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#39

Day 9 - RebirthU + KhanQ ST1 + RICH Solace

Khan truly makes me horny af.

For anyone running it, you either need an “outlet” in form of a woman, or many women, or you have already learned how to redirect your sexual energy. Otherwise, I see many men falling back to porn or smth, running Khan.
Truly, I need to fuck every day lol!

Rebirth DEFINITELY helps. While I feel a bit of fatigue in the middle of the day, I am not angry AT ALL. Great addition!

However, I might add another midweek rest day. I only get about 6-7 hours of sleep / night currently due to circumstances, and that doesn’t seem to be enough to work through it all. Will also add naps and meditate more.

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#40

Day 10 - RebirthU + KhanQ ST1 + RICH Solace
7 Days on stack so far.

Last night for the first time I could remember the dream. And it was revolving around social anxiety. Walking away from situations instead of facing them. Fleeing a discussion, etc.
The setup was a bit fucking weird, but the idea behind it was clear for me.

Also, my uncle’s ex-wife was mean to us as children, and she appeared as well. Khan ST1 definitely working through something there!

EDIT:
I was also thinking of re-introducing BLU again, but after reading this great thread by our leader: Request for a new EVERYTHING title for men OR upgrade Khan For Men

I decided against adding too many subs.

I only just started with them, and KhanQ is already fucking me up. I really only run RICH in this because I am a greedy bastard.
If I noticed anything, then running dense subs like Khan is really supposed to be done as a single. Especially if you start out. The changes are MASSIVE.

In another thread I read by @Fire that these subs aren’t toys and that they are very powerful. I didn’t think of them as toys, but when you start out, you’ll be like, “Sure, man. I’ll can handle it easy.”
And then you hit a wall.

Like, they are not powerful, they are POWERFUL.
I am still amazed at how much they truly do with just an hour of listening to “a bit” of messaging.

On topic:
RebirthU is helping. This morning I noticed a bit of anger coming back for a second, but vanished quickly. Definitely helps reconciling with KhanQ.
I can only imagine what KhanQv2 ST1 would do :no_mouth:

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#41

What is smth?